18.7 Praseodymium metallicum proving
Meditation proving, seminar group, 30K, Toronto, 12 November 2000, remedy unknown.
Themes
Twisting, vines, propeller, turbine, gorge, corkscrew.
Penetration, torpedo, penis.
Green, blue, turquoise.
Power, speed, strong.
Shapes, geometry: squares, triangles, rings, prism.
Angels.
Waves, sea, river.
Isolation, prison.
Hollowness.
Arms, hands: tingling, heavy, weak, absent.
Blood and heart: rushing, heat, palpitation, fast.
Cerebral palsy.
Head, vertex and forehead, contracted.
Eyes, contracting, retracting.
Difficulty breathing.
DNA.
Prover 1
Central core.
Calmness.
Rational view of situation, removed from my own feelings.
Justification for situation.
Stomach full.
Bloated.
Desire to press stomach, epigastrium.
Coldness, especially upper extremities, too tight.
Head chakra, clear and tingling, vertex.
As if stomach muffled, blanket over it.
Prover 2
Arms felt absent.
Warmth, warm.
Blood circulation through left scapula, left arm.
Blanket of snow, cold, numb.
Connected with ground.
Prover 3
Light, flicker, dance.
Fire, but no heat or burning.
Mutable /immutable.
Walking on fiery coals.
On the beach by the ocean, power, immutable, always.
Ever changing, yet remaining the same.
Calm.
Prover 4
Heaviness upper forearms, frontal, later as if neck is elongated.
Cervical vertebrae, release of muscle tension.
Ammonia like clearing of nares, evolved to clear head, feel very clear… head can breath.
Heaviness, sub-mandibular, left side.
Inguinal churning, griping, intensifies at end, pain.
Whirling vortex, leftwards in black and white like fingered bifurcating dividing branches.
Positive negative image, blurred together shapes like dry brush strokes of wheel in cartoon used to signify motion or speed.
In the shape of a tumbleweed.
Prover 5
Felt a quality like contraction as though I was in a cube or surrounded by walls.
A gray shiny silvery color.
Felt blocked as though I could not get out of something, was trapped without an exit.
More aware of heartbeat and tightness in chest.
Felt heartbeat in throat.
Prover 6
Formication of scalp and forehead.
Sensation of pulsing in head.
Urge to clear throat and cough.
Light-headedness.
Severe pain in base of thumb.
Sticking below ribs (own?).
Prover 7
Mountains.
Slashing, quick flashes, quickness, violence.
Blue.
Sadness, sort of stunned, staring.
Too important.
Flower, white, yellow.
Peaceful.
Uterine tingling.
Helped lower back soreness.
Internal excitement.
Prover 8
Twitching left shoulder.
Pain tingling in occiput.
Shallow breathing.
More salivation, more body heat. Cold teeth.
Bars somewhere as in obstruction or prison.
Alpine meadow; small alpine flowers, greenery.
Sense of falling forward or need to hunch backward.
Blurred slightly foggy thinking; want to sleep.
Prover 9
Stitching umbilical pain extending downward 3 inches on the inside, hard pressure makes it worse.
Floating feeling went up my arms from my fingertips then washed all over my body.
I feel light and serene.
Gut pain is intense, felt like left shoulder was tilted downward and that my body was twisted.
Prover 10
Giant frog legs, jumping, leaping, like a torpedo.
Greenness, ponds, blue turquoise water.
Spinning, towards sky and earth, counterclockwise, almost scary, out of control.
Want to sing, loud beautiful emotional song.
Want to talk out loud, make noises.
Prover 11
Hanging on.
Green trees, grass, fields.
Mountains, gray.
Sadness.
Pain in occiput, clamp like.
Space, expanse.
Death.
Walking, wandering, alone.
Prover 12
My cold hands felt warm
Bloating feeling (maybe because I had lunch).
But at the end I felt comfortable.
Prover 13
Red ear, inflamed all around it, really red.
Felt dizzy and light-headed.
Tingling in my toes.
Numbers in the fingertips.
Felt the hands were very light as if not there.
Car.
Tip of green glass bottle.
Blue or greenish blue color in river shape.
Angelic essence.
Tip of pine tree.
Didn't want to come out of meditation state.
Strong or weak.
Prover 14
Extreme fear. Extreme peace.
Arms trembling, external and internal.
Desire to cry, sob.
Weakness arms.
Prover 15
Anxiety.
Upper body weakness, especially arms.
Mild tachycardia.
Mild feeling of suffocation.
Breathlessness.
Need for cool fresh air.
At beginning a feeling of panic, at end peacefulness.
Prover 16
Squares.
Square room, with round twisted chandelier.
I was in a submarine with a square porthole.
Looking out at the water.
Rigid thick walls.
Sharp pain in the left little finger.
Prover 17
First felt uncomfortable, hollow, pressure in middle of chest- slightly on right side.
Then with hollow feeling in throat, similar to the chest.
Then a pressure and tingling in scalp.
Slight inner trembling.
Thoughts about the compositae and rose families.
Finally a feeling of peacefulness.
Half hour later scalp is still feeling tingling and under pressure, face feels flushed, like a coffee or chocolate rush.
Prover 18
Prickly numb sensation at the tip of tongue.
Prickly pains in left side of body, sort of itching.
Pressing inward in small spots: prickly itchy at temples.
Tingling in left leg.
Everything comes to a point- a single point, an arrow, a point.
Heavy, alone.
Prover 19
Swelling engorgement in my finger, travelling up in my right arm, which became completely numb.
A sensation as if I was floating.
I feel like I had a string attached to the back of my shirt that was lifting me off my seat; as I was raised I became trapped in a tornado-like vortex; I was having a vertigo that was swinging me. I felt as though there were small lights around me; it was calming.
When my arm became swollen I had a sense of fear, death maybe.
Feeling of numbness, lightness.
Tingling.
I felt the need to lean forward, hold my head with my hands.
My head was hurting.
Prover 20
Sensation of pulsating in both arms.
Felt heavy in arms.
Slightly dizzy, as if I was drifting in a circle.
Everyone else in the room looked farther away than before.
Dull pressing headache in occiput area as if my head is too heavy to hold up.
Deep pressing pain behind my right ear.
Prover 21
Image of the sea.
Waves of blue-green color. Noticed that my breathing came in synchronicity with the rise and fall of the waves.
Peaceful sensation.
Prover 22
Right side heart pain or tightness.
Right sinus above eye.
Left inguinal opening into abdominal cavity
Right thigh anterior, heaviness, contraction, tingling.
Ascending colon pain and tight, right abdomen.
As if someone standing behind me, behind my right shoulder, touching, squeezing right shoulder.
As if someone kissed right cheek, just a brush of the lips with the kiss.
Kept telling me not to question: “Just go with the flow”.
A disk of pulsating light, alternating light and dark, towards the center yellow.
Like waves.
Look up, up high light rod and head moves, tilt up, image changes to waves, coming into center.
Color blue to blue-green.
Prover 23
Sensation in upper rear quadrant of head, behind right ear, almost a ringing, more like an awareness.
Prover 24
Blankness in my mind.
Hot burning ball in solar plexus region that seemed to radiate warmth.
Not good or bad sensation, just there.
Prover 25
Intense pressure in general: first in head, forehead and temples.
Then the whole body, as if pushed backwards, hard to keep head straight up.
Feel like sliding down very fast.
Dizziness.
Moan a bit. I feel scared, I want to rush out of the room. Couldn't do it.
Intense heat, start to sweat.
Feel crushed, the pressure is too much.
Pain in the heart, pressure in the chest, fear my heart will give out.
Pain between shoulder blades (old symptom).
Prover 26
Feeling of anxiety with trembling inside, almost like palpitations.
Seven and a half months pregnant; baby moving very actively.
Pounding feeling in head, not pain, just sensation like blood moving through head.
Prover 27
White light.
Large very friendly void.
Happy white light.
Prover 28
Saw mushroom-shaped image with circular divisions on top.
Whole top of mushroom was spinning and looked magical.
Vision of fiber-optic type spray of lighted thin rods swaying in upper left corner of my field of vision.
Saw the schematic outline of an erect penis.
Prover 29
An inner smoothness.
At first felt tingling down my arms and across my back, like electric shocks.
Blue and white in front of my eyes.
I felt nice.
A flush of heat.
Prover 30
Pulsation in tip of nose, recurrent.
Weird feeling in left eye, as if eyes start floating left to right and again.
Sea.
Headache.
Some fullness in liver and spleen region.
At first pleasant then sad.
Prover 31
Feeling of being pulled downward.
Left-sided sensations.
Color purple.
Feeling of motion to the left, swirling.
Heart rate increased.
Prover 32
Triangle.
Heaviness in arms, from the elbow down.
Then arms felt very floating, like floating and then very heavy again, and that stayed.
I didn't want to pick up my arm and write because it felt too heavy and it is aching in my right thumb while I write.
My head and eyes felt heavy as well.
Twitch in my left finger.
Itch on the right side of my neck.
Shortness of breath [my own symptoms?].
Light coming to a focal point, like a brilliant cut diamond.
Prover 33
Left-sided headache.
Heart palpitations.
Floating sensation in upper body, torso and chest.
Feels like a plant.
Softness.
Seriousness.
Prover 34
Sharp needle pain to the left of the vertex.
Energy blocked at chest-throat area.
Image of a window, like those in old churches, triangular and square, a curved top, yellow, green and red colors; seems to be the only window in a big dark church room, the window was the only focus of the meditation proving.
Prover 35
I felt like running with a pack of wolves and standing on a rock howling at the moon. At some point my mouth was open and breathing out fire, fire shooting up.
My wrists felt heavy as if there was a band or chain around them.
I also had the feeling of being a fire, a fiery bush in the wind and the wind could not blow out the flame.
I had the impression of something flat like an iron band.
I had the question of why I didn't take a picture before.
I was afraid that the flash of the camera would be a disturbance.
Prover 36
A vine was creeping through a village. It was very green and would creep mostly through the streets and up the walls. It could eventually grow in some small corner.
There was something sinister in the vines in the way they twined and in the way they grew over the corners, as they could create shadow and destroy structure. Yet there was something welcoming in the greenness of the twisty vines. The people in the village did not seem to have strong reactions to all this. They just accepted it.
Prover 37
A huge tower clock, the kind you see on big buildings, but I could see only one part of it, the left upper quadrant, and there was an angel in the image with the clock. The angel looked like in old paintings: a young baby-like body with golden harp.
The edge of a canoe resting, calm water, twilight.
Pain in a spot over left eye, aching, only in clearly defined spot, and my left eyelid was closed tighter than my right.
The left side of my face felt tight with a desire to blink the left eye. As if a spasm of the left side of the face.
Old ancient feeling.
Prover 38
Sensation of heat, especially up the back, through shoulders, neck and head.
Tension in left side of neck, extending from shoulder to occiput.
Tension between scapulae as if being drawn together.
Feel heart pounding, as if from anxiety or exertion and could feel blood surging through upper half of body.
Right palm sweaty.
Tension of constriction in the chest like a band.
Prover 39
Elephant tusk (not the remedy).
Savannah (not the remedy).
High red cliffs, red rock, looking up from below.
Indians.
Looking down from top of cliffs, way down, hundreds of feet.
Ancient place.
Thank you- woman in jeweled headpiece with tassels at side bowed with hands together. Namaste.
Trembling, feel blood pulsing through upper part of body; vibrating energy feeling.
Prover 40
How am I not going to talk during the meditation?
I will need to talk.
I feel myself to be a plant with a winding stalk; the image of a vine intertwined.
There are many roots, not a tuberous root, rather lots of small threadlike roots, shallow roots; easily uprooted.
Squeezing head sensation.
Pressure over the ears.
A flower head like a rose.
Heavy sensation on the chest, not enough oxygen.
Liking to be alone; the solitary bloom.
Feel comforted.
Sensation of something growing out of my back.
Centered, rooted, graceful, motionless (I am never motionless in my life).
I am a thing of beauty, quiet beauty.
Heart pounding in my throat.
Hollow body, my stem.
At lunch my right hand went numb.
Prover 41
Spectacles; upper part with a smaller diameter than lower part, left side retracted.
Cubes piled up in the form of a cross, in the left lower part of vision, like a man, the arms were powerless.
3 flags, Scandinavian, 2 directed to the outside, 1 to the inside of their triangle.
Prover 42
I feel like I’m floating.
I keep seeing rings around me.
I’m going in circles.
I feel out there with rings around me floating.
There’s heaviness in my face across the sinuses and forehead.
I felt I was up in space.
Prover 43
Sharp deep pain in right zygomatic arch extending into head.
Sharp pain in right inner nostril, lateral, but easier to breath trough that nostril.
Passing lot of gas, but no odor to flatulence.
Lots of rumbling in stomach.
Sharp pain in right chest wall.
Generally felt calm, peaceful, but should it be this way?
Sharp pain in right lateral shoulder, medial deltoid.
Prover 44
Feels lighter, upward sensation, as if moving up, floating.
Feeling of song, yellow.
Lips tingling.
Face tingling.
Prover 45
Mouth tingling.
Teeth full, like they are more aware, tingle.
Left side of face feels like a gray cloud of energy has settled there.
A soft pressure on left side of face.
Had to straighten my spine, sit up straight on my chair, shoulder back.
Feet placed on flour, feel tingling of left foot, rooted, connections to earth.
Mood soft, still.
Prover 46
Anxiety in stomach.
Heaviness in the chest, breathing fast, shallow, almost out of breath.
Numb in hands.
Chilly inner feeling, inner icy cold sensation, even though sweaty hands and body externally cold.
Crying and weeping, very emotional.
I came to realize that I really love myself and how come I didn't realize it sooner.
Inner trembling.
Pressure in my head on the crown.
I feel like I don’t want to talk.
My hands are cold.
I don’t feel like talking at all.
Prover 47
Sensation of tingling up the arm.
Very intense dizziness.
Heaviness in the head, particularly the occiput, vertex.
Felt that if I tried to walk I would fall over.
Overall sense of being weighed down with pain between the shoulder blades.
Felt alone, but wanting to connect to someone, possibly a mother.
A lot of anxiety feeling in the stomach, unexplained or unknown.
Felt several times close to weeping but not knowing why.
Prover 48
I like this little pellet so much that I actually want to take it, to absorb into my blood-vessels.
Severe heart palpitations; tachycardia.
I could hear my heart beat in my ear, I could feel it in my whole body.
I suddenly felt I like myself a lot, as I’m part of that remedy that I like a lot.
I knew that I’m right (I actually criticize myself all the time).
Headache is starting in my temples, in synchronicity with my heartbeat.
I feel isolated, it’s like being detached, far away from home.
Prover 49
Headache settling in front of head.
I could not go to my favorite place to relax.
I was pushed up, higher and higher until I could see the whole world.
I wanted to go back to my favorite spot but when I came there the trees were dark and it felt like there were wolves. I wanted to leave but had some trouble. Then I found I could simply walk over the rocks and on the other side it was sunny again and I saw my friends and my sister. We relaxed together on the beach.
Some nausea and spinning.
Headache went away.
Palpitations.
Color turquoise.
Prover 50
Looking up at a very tall, larger man while sitting down. He is like a grandfather. He puts his hands on mine and I feel reassured, young and small. There is a desk between us and I’m sitting at the desk.
Chairs, different ones, all were made of a shiny silver metal. They were very well made and very intricate. They were turning around in a train or tram.
I felt airy and light walking along.
My lips were tingling and it continued up the sides of my face to my ears.
Color orange.
Prover 51
Round objects, spheres, expanding.
Angles of the corners of the room.
Color red.
Glass in front of me filled with red liquid, something like tomato juice.
Thoughts fleeting about.
The angle of the front of my body sloping away from me.
Narrowest at my neck, widest at my abdomen.
Dome of Jan’s head.
Globes of light above.
Pain in right thigh.
Prover 52
Bright yellow flower.
I feel as if someone kissed me on the left cheek.
I’m very aware of the left side of my heart, I feel the heart rate has slightly increased.
I really felt nothing else (very unusual for me).
Prover 53
A lot of anxiety internally.
This remedy brought a calm over my upper chest and down my arms.
It was a cool glowing feeling that spread across my chest.
I could breathe easier.
It was as if my chest had opened up from tightness and my breathing became deeper and slower.
I feel a cooling calm over my upper body.
I also felt twinges and movement in the right ovary area.
I felt a twinge in lower back area, just like a quick flash.
My forehead is more relaxed, but I feel energetic.
Lots of light, white light and soft purple color.
Prover 54
I felt incredibly peaceful, relaxed, had no trouble keeping my head clear of thoughts (this is not typical of me, I usually find it difficult to stop the flow of thoughts and images).
Pressure on my cranium, like skullcap, almost tingling, not heavy, just interesting.
A few sticking pains in the vertex of my cranium. The thought occurred to me ”it’s nice here, I’d rather stay in this lovely place than go back”.
There was a very vague far-off image of being on a high rocky bluff looking out over the ocean- the sea actually. It was sublime.
Heavy tightness of my face bilaterally, thought my tempero-mandibular joints would be very stiff when I tried to open my mouth, but they were not.
Prover 55
I experienced an immediate shift in my energy level. I became aware of this powerful energy in the area of my lungs and chest. It was like it was radiating from a point in the center of my chest and there was some sense of pressure there.
Also a dull but clean part in my right lung area.
The energy extended to my throat where I felt pressure on my Adam’s apple.
Shells and horse.
There was excitement at first because of the powerful energy.
Felt isolated.
Prover 56
Feeling of rushing towards something, a focal point.
Everything at the sides that I was rushing past was a blur.
Sensation in my chest of a triangular prism, 3-sided, the front edge was my breast-bone, the two other edges like my scapulae.
Again a feeling of moving forward with breastbone cutting whatever may be before me as I moved.
Rushing forward quickly as if towards some point, from the heart.
Feeling of the energy of the proving as if contained in fish bowl, with a solitary orange and white fish swimming at the top of the bowl, in the center, with a few bubbles coming up. A lot of blue in the surrounding water.
Prover 57
Two hands together in lap, I could feel them touching. Once I started to focus on the remedy although my hands were still together it felt as if they were no longer touching each other.
Disc of pulsating light alternating light and dark toward the centre.
Like waves of energy flowing to centre
Images changes to waves coming to center like a wide V, like the wake at the back of a boat, like being on a speed boat.
Color blue and blue-green