Passiflora edulis
Remedy code: 3- 644.32.08
A woman nearly 40, previously had Convolvulus. She's been through a very busy time at work, teaching IT, which caused the rash on her hands to return; her hands are completely covered. After Rhodium, it quickly cleared up (surprisingly also an allergy to dust, and the burden of sugars). After four months, she returns; her hands are doing well, it's much better, but emotionally, she's still vulnerable. ‘My environment is doing everything to make me unstable, it still makes me feel like I'm swaying.’ She does maintain good body posture and exercises every day, but it takes a lot of effort, and it only helps a little. Both her parents now have cancer, and her brothers hang on her. She struggles with extremes. There is no room for emotions with the family. She tries very hard to stand tall, to trust herself. She finds it grand, what she's experiencing. She tries to keep it small and to herself. She feels unstable, her confidence in herself shaken: ‘If I were to behave like them and make contact..., but I can't,’ she says with wet eyes. A dilemma. Otherwise, things are going well; lots of exercise, lots of time outdoors, she does everything where she tries to be in development. Perfectionism doesn't work well in this regard: it drains a lot of energy. It's always the same themes that she feels coming up: keeping it to herself, perfectionism, and the urge to take on others' worries. Now she has to hold up many plates, set boundaries, and keep it small, but finding peace in this is still difficult. It all drains her of a lot of energy; she's tired, and there are days when she can't wake up and is groggy all day. Having no interest in anything. She does exercises, she tries very hard to lengthen her muscles. ‘My body has functioned like a robot for so long, it's difficult to change now. Mother made little robots of us for years.’ Talking about it here literally makes her dizzy. When she's busy with students at work, then the energy flows. Also, being with the children, she feels she belongs somewhere, and then she sees the thread of life.
Analysis
Iron series: the theme is structure, duty, must-do, perfectionism, and putting it into practice.
Phase 3: Adapting, being unstable, working towards something, she still has to try very hard for it. Searching within Iron series, much adaptation, dizziness, seeking support, dizziness fits Phase 3. Phase 2: Very uncertain, trying to keep it small.
Stage 8: working very hard, forcing herself to fit in.
Prescription: Passiflora incarnata C200.
Follow up
Two months after taking the remedy, her bowels were upset, just like with the previous medicine Rhodium. Bowels and digestion are Fabidae characteristics. It starts with stomach, and diarrhea and lasts a few days, she also had a day of bladder discomfort. The medicine does ‘something’; she experiences it as special: ‘that ping-pong sensation’ is gone, that bouncing ball in her. She doesn't have to do all those exercises anymore (with the hip and movements); she has a lot of energy because she's no longer 'flopping' her body. When she listens now, it comes in; they always had so much trouble when she didn't respond when they asked her something. Now she's 'on'. She couldn't come up with words for a long time, see something happening, and then do nothing, not register it. She explains it herself as a protective layer; it didn't stick in school either. She could then reply, 'Yes-yes', but she didn't mind. Now it happens automatically. All the effort she had to put into it before, she doesn't have to anymore. ‘I now have control over my body’. There are some minor ailments now: the stomach and intestines are still sensitive, bloating after eating, and unable to go to the toilet. She feels how the food passes through the intestines. She now gets dizzy quickly, which is the most difficult, with crowds, after bending, in the car; she also feels a ringing in her ear. She has to take it easy than for a while, sometimes 10 minutes. She now often feels her ears as before, she hadn't had any problems with them for years, now at night, it often feels like she's getting an ear infection, but it's gone in the morning. She can see everything spinning; it happens quite often; she has to sit down for a while. This discomfort disappears after a few weeks. At work now it costs her less energy to be 'on'. Dreams: last week a dream where the floor was constantly moving, sinking, or rotating; after her parents had visited, it was over. At night, there was once a time when she saw someone; she just said hello and went back to sleep. She used to be scared of it or turning on a light, in the time before she got Convolvulus. It was a girl this time; she felt
no fear and had the feeling ‘I'd like to see her more often’, but didn't bother. She is less afraid in the dark and doesn't wake up anymore with palpitations at night. Now she doesn't need to have a comeback to everything; it comes in, all the impressions, and it goes out again, those words are no longer necessary. Takes distance with this. Now she sits and watches more, and knows it's okay, instead of just going on, now she experiences peace and feels quiet. She's often not even tired when she goes to bed, not even after a busy or strenuous day. It's all new to her; after a very busy day, she's relaxed and happy. If she goes beyond her limits, she gets a headache, and her son gets a nosebleed; he's very sensitive (got Boswelia). The reactions, to the intestines and balance, are typical symptoms of the Fabidae, Iron series, and Phase 3. At the same time, her energy increases, she is emotionally stronger, and she no longer needs to force herself. In the following years, she remains strong.