6.17 Neodymium sulphuricum case
Width 3, Depth 4, Cure 9, Duration 5
A woman of 50 has problems in her marriage. Her husband is depressed because he cannot find a job. He vents his troubles on her, but denies that he does that. She has the feeling that she has to do all kinds of things for him. She feels put into a straitjacket. She feels attacked immediately, even when he’s just opening his mouth. She fears that he will run away because of the quarrels. He doesn't keep his promises and agreements and that gives her the feeling of being his shadow. At a party he did the opposite to what they had agreed. Then she had nausea with abdominal cramps, better on bending double and diarrhea with watery stool and cramps in her clenched fists. She has the feeling that her husband squeezes her throat. She wants to run away, but her heavy legs keep her rooted to the spot. She wants to be free, to decide for herself what she will do and think. It feels as if she has to prove herself, to be her own boss.
This is a more general feeling in her life. She always feared being undermined and walked over if she wouldn’t fight for herself. She needs space. She gives it to others and wants to get it for herself too. She always did things in her own way. For instance she went abroad at 17, against the will of her parents. Her mother was domineering, hysterical and beat her often. She didn't allow her to bring friends home, and boyfriends were totally out of question. Her mother used to say “Children should be seen, not heard”. Her mother tried to break her will saying “What you ant is of no consequence". Her mother once slapped her boyfriend in the face, because he wasn't good enough. This made her very angry towards her mother with the impulse to kill her. At 18 she left home, to live with her boyfriend.
She’s irritated by injustice and is verbally aggressive, saying exactly what she thinks.
Other complaints are varicose veins, on the lateral and back side of her thigh, more left sided, with pain as if pinched or squeezed from standing too long, > walking and > lying with her legs high, < 7 pm. The pains start in the inguinal region and extend to her feet. Together with these she has tingling in her leg and feet and heavy legs. It’s more left sided. She also has headaches, < afternoon, < working, > walking, > alone, < company, < heat, < lying on back, > pressure of her two hands, < food, > bread. It feels like a band around the top of her head, is more left sided, with double vision and her left eye turning inwards. It makes her feel unsafe, as if the ground has been taken away from under her feet, as if she has no grip, as if undermined.
She behaves as if there are no problems. She doesn't want to be seen as weak, especially not by the family. She doesn't care about what strangers or neighbors will think and say. She’s always cheerful and laughing. She was raised with the idea that pains and complaints were nonsense, so she never shows them. So people lean on her more than she does on them.
Dream: wild dreams and waking covered in sweat.
Dream: blood.
Dream: drowning.
Dream: being stabbed in her abdomen and bleeding to death.
Color preference: 15D (dark blue).
Generals
Weather: warm, < heat, > open air; at home always walks on bare feet.
Desire: warm food, sour, fruit.
Aversion: fat, bacon (2), fish.
Analysis
The marriage problems point to Sulphur. Her complaints confirm this: varicose veins, heavy legs, < warmth, > lying legs high.
In the marriage it’s like a fight to be her own boss. This indicates the Lanthanides. And she wants to prove that she can do it, which indicates Stage 6. Together this leads to Neodymium sulphuricum. The Neodymium is also reflected in her attitude of being the strong one. It is as if she has to prove (Stage 6) her self (Lanthanide) all the time. And it’s towards her family (Silicon series, so also Sulphur), not for strangers (Silver series) or neighbors (Iron series, although it can also be Silicon series when they are more like friends).
This theme was already present in her childhood. She had to fight (Stage 6, 8 or 12) for her boyfriend (Sulphur) against her mother. It was a fight that she could settle herself (Lanthanides). The fact that it was for friends in general could remind one of Phosphorus. But for boyfriends (Sulphur) it was the strongest, and “out of the question".
Confirmations
Lanthanides: self-willed, breaking a person's will, own boss, <- straitjacket, domineering (mother), needs space but also gives it to others, headache.
Gold series: double vision, kill.
Neodymium: prove, as if no problem.
Silicon series: fears what her family will think.
Sulphur: warm, < heat, > open air, -> fruit, -> sour, <- fat, desire bare feet, heavy legs.
Follow up
After Neodymium sulphuricum MK she gets old complaints back. First she gets abdominal cramps for a few weeks. Then she gets her old vaginal infection with leucorrhea back for a few days. At last she gets a severe bursting headache for about 5 days. After these old complaints she develops a new one, eczema on her feet. Vesicles develop on her soles and between her toes, itching when warm and from wearing closed shoes, better from wearing sandals. Her marriage is working out better and she’s more positive about it. She can listen to her husband better, without feeling forced and treated as a patient. She feels much less attacked and doesn't think immediately that he will walk out on her life when they quarrel.
A year later she needed a repetition when she had marriage troubles again. A week later already she felt quieter, could sleep better and felt more relaxed. In general her quality of life rose from 40 to 80.