6 Isolona madagascariensis
Number: 3-622.43.__
Clades: Annonaceae, Magnoliales, Magnoliidae, Magnolianae, Angiospermae. Clades: Hydrogen series, carbon series; Phase 3; Stage 3.
Introduction
They feel unconnected, detached, being no part of things. But is an almost unconscious experience, like a young child who looks into the world with amazement. Everything is new, without memories or references. Life feels like a lottery where one cannot predict the outcome. They feel different, have no share with the world and others. They wait for others to tell them how things are, how they feel.
Mind
Slow, relaxing.
Timeless.
Tendency to avoid problems.
Annoyed by noises, hairs, disturbances.
Feeling unconnected, > by diversion, noise, looking to nature.
Dream: being on a boat with 2 side poles, far a way from home, before coming ashore somewhere.
Body
Head: headache, temples, as in a vise. Back: weak.
Discussion Isolona madagascariensis
What we experienced around us: senses stronger, love for details, no sense for time, fascinated by flowers, bees, butterflies; wow feeling, remedy was a sticky mass.
In our body: vision dim due to thick lachrymation; vise between temples.
What we care about: while triturating, parts separate, not belonging to the mass anymore; try to get them back, keeping the group together; but while triturating I created pieces no longer belonging to the whole.
What was not an issue: fear, anxiety, loneliness, loss, pain. It was only about not being connected.
They could not express themselves. Prover 4 was in nature, and as soon as she got back she was alone.
Not being connected. Prover 6 could not feel any pain, not being connected. Kind of fleeing away in sensations to avoid the feeling of not being connected. Prover 4 didn’t have a feeling of time, there was no relation to time, could not read the watch.
Feeling of a small child, no clue what is was all about. Looking after each other very nicely, very simple.
Prover 6 felt like a tree in the woods. To be one with them.
They were confused and they preferred to be rather stuck than asking others, which could create even more confusion to them. They tried to hide their confusion, and they were in the same boat. They realized that when they would ask it would contribute to even more confusion. Because different people could have different opinions, and then they would not know what to adapt to.
There is a group of people in a boat in the ocean, Indonesian people coming to this island.
These people had nothing to hold on as these 2 trees at both sides. They were not connected to anything else. When they landed they had to start and that is the point where time starts.
The solution is that you realize that it is all new, like the initiation. Being aware that you are in that state.
Analysis
There is Hydrogen series in it, feeling a sperm between others.
Phase is most likely also 3. Annonaceae can then be divided in more families with their Subphases. Annonaceae is a big family in tropical regions.
All the Magnoliales can have dementia. Dementia is a regression into more primitive sides.
The feeling of being new might be important in differential to strange. Strange implies a distance and new means to be open.
Everything is new for them, so this plant or tree can be seen as Stage 1.
Proving Isolona X
Trituration proving, Nosy Be, Madagascar 24-9-2013. Provers: Prover 4, Prover 6.
Transcribed by Prover 6, reviewed by Prover 4.
C1
Prover 4 (writing, while F triturates): I am watching the bees pollinating flowers, I can hear them. There are lots of bees, they are so busy. There are lots of blossoms as well, yellow and red ones, a multicoloured image. Flies are sitting on my foot. Everything exists just in this moment. I am stuck into the details, they are attracting and fascinating. Here and now. A hair is tickling my chin, a fly touches my nose. I notice the stones under my feet, which are sharp.
Prover 6 finds it hard to triturate, it is hot, he yawns, says he is tired. His eyes are wet and his sight is weak, due to thick eye fluid. He was annoyed by the flies, too. Scraping is easier than triturating. We missed to watch the time, right now, after the first round.
Prover 6 is writing, while Prover 4 triturates.
Prover 6: Right in the beginning, I thought I just might have to continue with the trituration, then the flies would leave me. C sees butterflies with eyes, when closing hers. She feels a headache, like a vice (clamp), in the temporal fossae; the air feels hot and stuffy for her. Her back feels weak, in the lower dorsal region; hard to sit erect. She finds her hair annoying, dancing in front of the face. She is got the sensation of a sticky mass in the bowl, while scraping, tough and gluey (F had not noticed this); she feels tension under her left scapula.
Prover 6 notices a huge empty old pod, pea pod among the flowers with the numerous bees.
Prover 4: If I do not hang on to the details, thoughts like, what for? and what is next? arise. Dwelling on details connects everything. It distracts from questioning about the sense of the whole. To remain in the details connects. It distracts from the many open questions about the sense of the whole. Prover 6 (Prover 4 is writing) cannot stand the powder to stick to the edge and not finding into the middle again. He constantly tries to scrape everything into the middle; finds it annoying; he wants all to be together. Everything should take part in the process. The group shall stay together.
Again, they miss the end of the trituration, scraping time. Prover 6 tries his best. But if he triturates thoroughly, he produces the problem himself, so that a part of the substance sticks to the edge. It seems to be a group immanent problem. Not everyone can be in the middle. There will always be some on the edge, even if you try hard to avoid that. Reflecting this, Prover 6 asks himself: Why is that a problem?
Prover 4 (Prover 6 writing): It feels much nicer now, totally fulfilled, as long as concentrating on my work. I do not feel good anymore, if I try to regard the whole situation. Just get connected while acting; no further images. The physical pressure on the head mentioned above now extends towards the root of the nose, like a clamp or a vice, reminding of Cinnabaris.
Prover 4: It’s really mean that this stuff sticks on the edge. And that really matters! Flies, they are like jet fighters. Just stuck in details. I feel totally unbound, as if not being part of the whole. I am only connected while being in action, triturating, scraping, or while watching flowers and bees.
When Prover 4 sees Prover 23 coming, she says to Prover 6: We are always forced to feel something, he (Prover 23) is even more annoying than you.
Prover 4: Everything smells very intense around us.
Prover 6: If this plant is a tree which wants to have nice fruits, there is some- thing hindering it. For some reason it wants to produce nice fruits, which smell and taste and make happy. Something nice shall arise from this tree. But it does not happen, no nice fruit is coming. Maybe it is not high enough, lacks sunlight, or pollination does not happen. It concentrates on forming nice blossoms and flowers, and there it ends. Everything ends here.
Prover 4: As long as one is in action, one does not scrutinize. How does that feel? A bit helpless; as if someone should tell me how it feels, says Prover 4.
For Prover 6, it feels exactly the same! Prover 4 (Prover 6 writing): I treat the substance with affection; I do more caressing than triturating. As long as I am doing this job, I do not lack anything. Prover 6 has the imaginary of a potter’s wheel; to form something, to create. Prover 4 exactly looks at the watch after
six minutes of triturating. Soft scratching; like caressing. F. is going on with the image of pottering: You can form so much with your hands, while softly gliding, a bowl e.g. Is this a solution? To carefully handle things or relationships, or is it an escape? I feel I am in good hands.
C2
Prover 6 thinks this plant has to do something with some inner meaning (?
do not remember that). C: I think I realized how to run around the problem. Maybe I manage until the end of my time.
Prover 6: „The answer is blowing in the wind”(Bob Dylan). It feels like: you avoid to see a problem, so the solution is even farer away.
Prover 6: I feel the bowl to become a part of me. I am sitting upright, easily, the shoulders relaxed. Prover 4 sees Prover 23 coming: I am afraid, again he will ask about a problem. Maybe I should invent one. I still avoid facing the problem. Have you been sad Prover 6, not having fruits?
Prover 6: A bit, yes, but maybe I am just not worth it. Who am I, finally? Maybe I am waiting for someone to tell me that. But that can be dangerous. If someone tells me who I am and afterwards someone else tells me something different, then I will be confused again. The others (trees) surrounding me are not doing no harm to me. Everyone is doing his thing. Everyone seems to be different to me. I cannot recognize anyone like me. I cannot see anything similar to me.
It does not feel lonely, that would be too simple. Also, I am not in danger, the others do not frighten me. I am not afraid. I do not feel pain as well. And I have not lost anything. I cannot say what I am lacking. It does not hurt. I do not feel connected (to what the others are doing). Do I feel connected with myself? I am not related. I do not have fruits, but I do not miss them, because I never had any. Time does not matter. Maybe it (the answer?) will come, maybe not.
Prover 6 is writing: Prover 4 has the image of turning globes with numbers as
in a lottery. Somehow, she feels, it would be nice to be a millionaire. But it does not matter; she never was one, so she does not know how it feels like, so she does not miss it. The others in the group ignored her this morning, they Did not want to play with her.
Prover 4: Does no one understand me? Does anyone understand me? I want to be part of them, part of the group. Although I do not need to be the same way they are; I feel fine the way I am, but I want to be connected to them, otherwise I feel helpless. I feel a kind of sadness. What is behind? What is unpleasant? I want to be connected.
Time is on my side (Rolling Stones), Prover 6 is singing, because we missed
the 6 to 4 minutes rhythm over and over and also because we actually felt time would not matter.
Prover 4: A sort of sadness is spreading; sad, because of being unconnected. F asks: Does that feel lonely? C: How does lonely feel like?
Prover 6: It still feels good to triturate. It means to connect one thing with another, as the pistil with the bowl, the substance with the sugar, the pistil with the hand. Only like this, connection is granted. To be connected with the cause, to get in contact with the cause that is the thing that really matters. The bowl is connected with my upper tight, the pistil with my hand. Only that way connection is granted. C: I have the feeling of not being aware of anything around us, but still I am surrounded by so many things.
Prover 6: The clamp feeling (like a vice) ought to be an important symptom, it creates connection. To cling to or to stick together is the opposite of hanging loose.
We talk about music from the sixties.
Prover 4: Do you think my arguments are ridiculous? (Prover 6 asked the same question a while ago, vice versa.) I just want to be seen the way I am.
Prover 6: What makes you feel, not to be seen in the right way? Prover 4. points towards her solar plexus. It is a slightly bad inner feeling, uneasy, insecure and heavy, a constrictive sensation. Deep breathing or deep sighs ameliorate. Prover 6 is having no idea about anything. Everything seems strange to him. He is wandering about the girls cleaning the room next door. Are they making thoughts about the two of us, sitting here and triturating? Do they think we are okay?
We both believe all others are more connected than we are!
Prover 6: Maybe I want to know what the others know about me. Maybe that is the problem? Maybe I am just looking for someone who tells me who I am and what matters to me. On the other hand, I want to find out myself, what could be good for me. I want to find my own solution. I am kind of avoiding (to see the problem), in order not to feel the disappointment of not being able to solve it. Prover 4: I go with the flow. As soon as I look at the blossoms, I feel connected, deeply connected, secure and timeless. As soon as I am disconnected, I feel helpless, longing for connection. This is the cycle of my problem. Being unconnected is like having no point of reference. Time does not help, it does not matter. As being dissolved in nothing.
Prover 6: Like an unrecorded disc or a flickering TV screen or an empty book (for which no seal would be needed); what is it going to be all about? Which story has to be told? Telling stories needs history, but as there is no existing time, history has not started yet.
C3
Prover 4: This is the beginning. The start has been made. Now everything is possible. History may start.
Prover 6: Everything is new and fascinating, because we do not now anything by now. It does not feel strange, but new. Strange would mean, you are able to compare it with former experiences. Here they do not exist; therefore every- thing is new, instead of strange.
Prover 4: To be connected means there is neither outside nor inside. I am part of the whole, secure like in a magic unity. Conception, the very beginning. Like a million sperms on their way to connect to an egg. This is the deep inner mission which has to be accomplished. The deeper meaning arises as soon as there is connection.
Prover 6: Image: A boat, like the one fishermen use, here in Nosy Bé, an outrigger canoe. Like the boats they came along with, all the way from Indonesia, in ancient times. They committed themselves to nature and their only supports were three trees forming a boat, holding together like the vice in Prover 4’s headache. They come there, and not until they got ashore, history started. For them, all was new, instead of strange.
Prover 4 adds the image of a tricycle, children use to start their first run; or sup- porting wheels, a child needs to be supported.
Prover 23 joins us again and we are talking about series and stages. We are just at the beginning, starting our individual life on earth, being confused and feeling insecure.
Prover 6: What is the problem in this remedy? We take care for each other, so everyone should have enough to drink; one should not expose his toes into sun- light, to prevent them from burning. We care for each other, because we share the same boat. Apart from that, we commit ourselves to nature. We do not feel danger, how should this feel like? Everything is new instead of strange. Behind us, there is nothing, everything is here and now. Just, we intuit, there will be land somewhere. No myth frightens us, we feel free of religion (in the sense of: we are unbounded). Just the stomach is growling. I do not feel afraid, I am not aware of danger. I cannot imagine something like that. I do not realize the chance of failing. This could create a problem! Furthermore it is not healthy, to only be aware of oneself, while being active.
Prover 4: I want to know so much more, I long for the things to happen, to experience every flower, every beetle. An important part of the problem with
all It is confusion is, if two voices tell different kind of information. Which one would be the right one?
But I do need information from outside, to develop. Just on my own, I am not getting any wiser.