18.5 Cerium metallicum proving
Meditation proving, 30K, meditation proving seminar, 4 May 1996, Amsterdam, remedy unknown.
Themes
Sensation: heavy, pressing, oppressive, stitching, splinter.
Localization: chest, cheeks, sinus, eye
Circles, snail’s shell, spiral, rising in a spiral.
Tower, lighthouse, direction indicator.
Light, dark. TV
Cocoon, bound, lonely; strange, glass between me and the world.
Castle, crown.
Search for the almighty.
Limbs and head detached from body
Prover 1
A writer with a goose quill and ink.
A tower.
A lighthouse; flashlight; warning. Direction indicator.
Prover 2
Splinter in throat.
Broken feeling in back, dorsal, between shoulder blades.
Neck is fixed, > motion.
Pressing feeling in head.
Prover 3
Heavy pressure above both eyes, later only right sided.
A swimming pool, beautiful blue water.
Beach and a glass revolving door.
Prover 4
A heavy centralized pressure in head and neck, extending to the body.
Difficult respiration, as if I have to draw in the air, desire to sigh in the end.
Dark red cocoon, alone.
Prover 5
Stitching pain in right temple.
A tumbling feeling, somersault.
Stomach discomfort, nauseating.
Pressure on stomach, sensation of vomiting.
Bluish purple neon shootings in the lower visual field.
Prover 6
Floating. No contact with surroundings.
Something between me and surroundings, not nameable.
Estrangement.
Also: acceptance, reconciliation.
Images of animals, bear, dog.
Concentric circles. Circle forms.
Prover 7
Vertigo, turning from right to left.
Idea I’m standing right, straight, not dizzy.
I’m dropping.
Idea my head is drawn to the earth, downward.
Prover 8
Pressure, oppression, enclosed from 3 sides, pressure on heart.
Prover 9
Feeling of heaviness, lame.
Turned inside strongly.
Chest, tension, pressure on sternum.
Prover 10
Tingling and aware of face, cheeks, jaws.
Heavy heart beats.
Constrictive, narrow feeling in chest, around sternum.
Clearly a sensitivity or consciousness of the heart chakra.
Serious feeling, devout.
Prover 11
Light green color.
Light pressure, not unpleasant, above ears, in the skin, in a line.
Very quiet, maybe from the meditation.
Prover 12
Twitching in lower lip, first in the lip, than below it; fine short contractions of the muscles.
Itching of left nostril.
Impression of activity, as from a lot of traffic in a city.
Prover 13
Strange taste in my mouth: sweet?, like iron?
Intangible.
Black blue.
Light and yet heavy [myself I take Aurum sulphuricum].
Stitching feeling in right eye socket.
Pressure on top of head.
Dry mouth.
Prover 14
Waves in circles on the water.
Firework explosion in the middle of circles of waves, volcanic; it changes into a sun rising between two mountains.
Prover 15
Nothing special.
Chilly.
Difficult to focus my attention.
Prover 16
I became smaller and smaller.
Almost into the ground.
Prover 17
Image of a rising spiral as from a snail’s shell.
An enormous gigantic broad castle.
Words: a search for the almighty.
A crown.
A rising in the spiral, like a stairway upward.
Prover 18
Stitch in jaw, from left to right.
At the right side is light and space; to the left side is darkness, "the corner of the room”.
As if I’m standing behind a television, I see the form vaguely; at the left all is dark, I’m standing in the corner and can’t go further backward.
Right is space, outside the glass, blue sky, light. It’s far away.
Pricking, stitching feeling in left shoulder.
Prover 19
Vertigo.
Burning, biting.
White whirl going down, very deep.
Orange, cherry-red explosion, very high.
Right is full, left is empty.
Cramp in the middle between the shoulder blades.
Feeling of not continuing this experience.
Prover 20
Vertigo.
Light in head.
Light around me.
Sand trap, deep, in the desert, not warm but dry, with children’s toys.
Like hyperventilation in my stomach.
Not unpleasant.
Prover 21
My head became very heavy.
As if a weight is in my upper head.
Easy respiration through nose.
Very spacious feeling in the back of the nose with a prickling tickling feeling.
Prover 22
As if I sit in something that goes fast.
Feeling as if half of my feet are absent.
Pain in left forehead.
Pain in left knee.
Pain in left temple.
Pain in left elbow.
Stitching in right side of neck.
Prover 23
Visual: idea of white light, increasing and then becoming dark.
Space transforming into narrow by means of light and dark.
Darkness, in which a violet spot extends and disappears again in a dark hole.
Pricking in right forehead.
Prover 24
Green color.
Feeling as if my head is loose from the chest, it loosens itself; my head tends to turn, like a kind of radar.
Tendency to nod.
My muscles relax.
My knees spread.
Sick feeling in lower abdomen.
Prover 25
Green.
Fatigue in lower arms.
Fatigue, stiff, pain in left neck. Tension.
Prover 26
Image of white sheep.
Right hand became very warm.
Prover 27
Frogs.
Sensation as if sitting in a very fast-turning merry-go-round; I get dizzy and want to get out.
Prover 28
Vertigo.
Trembling above right eye, decreasing.
Right half of head becomes light, it dissolves and becomes bigger; like a moon it passes over the dark left side and in the distance they meet. The same happens with the left side.
Lower side of chest extends far outward, think of the pancreas.
Fish scales.
Pain in left wrist, lateral side.
A kind of thoroughness, slow sluggish motion.
Forehead moves forward, the occiput backward.
Prover 29
Image of several layers of the earth, in different structures.
Gold was streaming through my vertex into my body and limbs and into the earth; I thought “That’s how the gold comes into the earth, heaven and earth”.
A spiral motion from above downward, constant.
A baby in a little bed, being lulled.
I felt myself floating and rocking like a thing in the water, but I was in the cosmos and felt connected to everything.
Light in head, vertigo, heavy as lead.
Feeling as if burning my fingers on touching the remedy.
Prover 30
Heavy head, difficult to hold it upright, tendency to nod.
Color purple, violet.
Pulsating of a purple circle, disappearing towards the centre.
Prover 31
A tunnel exit, where a train exits with loud noise; the front of the train disappears but the rest of the train keeps coming; it is as if the train is shot out the tunnel, as from the barrel of a pistol; at the exit is a fire [I had heard talk about high-speed trains and tunnels on the radio this morning].
No other image or association or information.
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Prover 32
Difficult to keep eyes closed.
Color blue-violet.
Cold arms and right axilla.
Bound as in a cocoon. Very fibrous.
Lonely, excluded from the external world.
Not sympathetic, congenial; I’m seen as not winsome.
Prover 33
Birds, pigeons in a cage in the woods.
Prover 34
Head feels as if in vise, in front of temples.
I’m floating in a big domed hall with a tropical garden, in about 1850.
Travel back in time, further to 1600 and 1500.
Water, ships, but still in an overview.
I’m not involved.
Prover 35
The upper side of my head feels pain, then tingling, pricking, kind of pleasant.
Prover 36
Very warm, heat in waves.
Strange sensation in lower abdomen, wave feeling.
Tears in left eye.
Feeling not being able to stop, having to go on.
Feeling as if sitting on a very long slide.
Prover 37
Short, light stitching feeling in the right maxillary sinus.
Accelerated respiration, feeling of lack of breath, desire to sigh, feeling of lack of oxygen.
Fast heart beat, some pressure on chest.
Color: green, blue.
Sensitive right throat and ear.
Right sinus sensitive.
Stitching through right axilla and lateral side of mamma and right lower arm, the palm and lateral side.
Prover 38
Things don’t have a fixed place anymore due to a storm with a strong frontal wind. All is blown away, it’s difficult to stay in my place.
Desire for contact with the feeling that it takes a lot of effort.
It was difficult to keep feeling the remedy in the little bag.
Grass and trees; the trees are the only things that stay on their fixed spot.
Green.
Heavy feeling.
Prover 39
Clear, before dull.
Pain in right shoulder, stitching.
Very hot fingertips.
Prover 40
Some tingling in fingers.
Restless, more than previous day, unpleasant.
Prover 41
Light crown of skull.
Loose.
Limbs loose from the body.
Falling apart.
Prover 42
Beaver.
Pain and tension in lower ribs and diaphragm.
Light hair, from above to shoulders.
I hear “Mayor, mayor”.