655.47.12 Azadirachta indica, Case
Woman, 40, oedema.
She has oedema of her legs, they are heavy and pulsating, painful on motion, better from caressing, worse from massage.
Her mother was busy with her brother. Her father avoided problems, never addressed problems, was often in hospital and had relationships with other women, having children with 4 women.
She never belonged to the family, always was the outsider. She is angry, furious about it. Her family always behaved as if she was the mad one, the misfit, the scapegoat, oversensitive. They were afraid everything she said, of the truth. She was the only one who was honest. They acted as if everything was her fault and shortcoming. Her mother always wanted to be right and she used to shrink in the presence of her mother. She feels weak but has a strong big body. She felt unwanted.
She feels vulnerable, on the edge of life and death, lonely and dangerous. She feels excluded, as if she landed on the wrong planet. She feels alone, cut off. She feels misunderstood, as if people walked over her, as if her reality has not been acknowledged, as if she was not allowed to exist, to be who she is.
In her marriage she had similar problems. Her husband put everything on to her, made it her responsibility after their child was born. She is angry that she made herself dependent on him. The worst thing is that he does not see her as she is. She has invested many years in her marriage, gave herself away. She feels maddeningly angry at him, scolds him, calling him a liar and cheat. She does not know where she disappeared in her marriage, as if she lived in a cocoon, feeling like a victim but knowing she did it herself.
She uses often rude language: wild, rough.
She has inflammation of her mamma, suppuration coming out of her nipple, worse from pressure. When she was breast feeding she had a lot of pain. She had a lot of milk but it could not come out. Her mother never did any breast feeding.
Her child is bullied at school, just as she was in her youth.
She is a therapist, doing all kinds of courses, family constellations. But her practice does not work. It is maddening that nothing works out.
Her husband and son are always blaming her, it is her mistake, her guilt and shortcomings.
Her world is for the family a fantasy world.
It is as if she took over the anger of her mother.
She loves plants and flowers, especially hortensia and petunia. She hates violets, they are hopeless.
Animals: she does not have much to do with them; every animal goes its own way; dogs are unpredictable.
Biggest fear: not belonging to some kind of group or people.
In the past fear that parents would die, which started after a car accident that happened to her parents.
She has a lot of anger.
In therapy beautiful descriptions of changed situations but at home it stays the same.
Analysis
Plant kingdom: love plants and flowers.
Silver series: therapist.
Phase 4: invested many years.
Subphase 7: feeling not the child of her father; violence; scapegoat; psychosis; incorrect; not honest; bullied; liar; cheat; exiled; scapegoat.
Stage 12: fighting for her rights.
Sapindales.
DD: Calcium bromatum; Nitrogen, Sulphur.
Follow up
She did very well on Azadirachta indica MK. She feels strong, connected to the roots coming from her grandfather. She discovered a kind of gypsy quality. Her relationship with her mother is improving. She is much more cheerful. She likes herself much more. She is nicer, happier and more refined. She has bigger arms. She is much nicer to her body, loves it more. She is allowing herself to be more beautiful. In the past she was holding herself in, trying to stop any problems with her big mouth. The magic of attraction is coming back. She was rejecting herself, had a too big body, her power was too big.