Tulipa sylvestris
Trituration proving: subspecies australis, 633.62.04
C1
Suppressed anger and bitterness, so deep in.
Being silent, don’t dare to talk, taciturn.
Anxiety.
Confusion.
Stupid, young, naive.
Helpless, left alone.
No support.
Right side.
Pain under scapula.
Let abuse happen; cannot say No.
Stomach, nausea, desire to vomit.
Tension between being pulled forward and drawn backward.
Looking downward all the time and towards the floor. Does not look into eyes.
Red faced and ashamed.
Don’t touch me.
Unable to act, just let it happen.
In a cocoon.
Retardation, very young.
Uncertainty about who I am.
Not longer a child, now sexual, because I am a woman or a man – what does this mean
Leucorrhea – in young girls
Shit in the corner, it won’t come out
Mother and father are not here
Dream- a pram with a doll in it
C
No relationship to anything or anyone.
Disgust at sexual things even thinking about them.
Fear of abuse.
Do not touch me.
Danger from men.
Pain from touch, but pressing is okay.
Self-harm – to be able to even feel myself.
A Marsh inside / disgust.
Lots of coryza, sudden flood. Like pepper.
Sinusitis.
Cold feet.
Cry and cry without reason.
A “?” like the plant.
Head hanging down / look to the bottom.
No-one sees me or knocks at the door.
Wind through my head / mucus.
Shaking.
No sound though making motions with mouth.
Looking through a milky window.
Stomach uneasy / Digestive / 3rd chakra.
No good connection to mother.
Inner un-cried tears.
Perhaps No ….Yes….perhaps….Is there a possibility.
Cervical blockage / disc prolapse in spine.
Neck / Stiffness from draft of wind. Cannot move in any direction, just one point of view.
Cervical vertebrae bending. Swaying.
Enclosed in little inner world.
In a corner.
In a cave.
Wallflower.
Embarrassed. In a corner alone. Keep self small.
Hiding.
Playing “Home” mother, father and child – like with the doll in the pram.
Daydreams instead of real life.
No decision. Hesitating.
Do not dare to go into a real relationship.
Blurred vision.
Stage 4 – cocoon, blurred vision, Ivory tower, make my own fantasy world.
Syndrome lipedema.
Right ear: Cannot hear / Blocked / Disgusting stuff coming out.
C3
Nothing in my brain.
Whore / Prostitute for even thinking about a sexual relationship.
One sided, cannot connect the two partners.
Stand still / No impulse to do anything.
Running back to Mother or parents, vulnerable experience.
Prickling of lips or genitals.
“Perhaps”.
Pupa / Cocoon.
Umbilical cord / a kind of birth trauma.
Healing the 3rd Chakra.
Untouchable, ulcers all over body. An outsider, leper, not connected.
Right ear.
Slowly coming into relationship, leaving gifts on doorstep, giving a kiss or an invitation.
C4
Melting / Thawing
Freezing uncried tears to melting and tears dropping.
The melting in spring from snow after a long hard winter – now life can grow up, open to life.
Umbilicus – Hernia or inflammation.
Not depending / Independent from parents. Live own identity.
Child anxious to leave parents and move into relationship. Am I ready to leave childhood ?
Take responsibility for my own feelings.
Forgiveness of parents.
It is necessary to go to one pole to experience oneness.
Men and women – no sexual desire, no orgasm.
Pelvic pains. Sacro-iliac pain, in hips. Psoas muscle pain.
Hindered sexuality.
Transgender / Sexual identity problem. I am comfortable with my gender, have a clear identity. Extreme sexual identity.
Soul is hesitating.
Help on the way home. Looking back, home is wonderful.
Vertebrae and discs. Back comes into place, instead of with osteopathic treatment.
Self-confidence.
Joy of life increases.