Dianthus armeria
Trituration proving to C3; 8.7.2018; Ritzing
C1
it is twice raining exactly when we talk about the plant and when we find her. and then it stops raining after one minute. very impressive. we choose her to be triturated because of these two coincidences. she knows exactly what she wants and needs.
story of a girl, whose mother was completely overstrained with the pregnancy and after birth.
Being in a balloon, just connected with the umbilical cord to the outer world.
Being in a frozen lake, the family is far away.
very tired, has to prop herself on her ellbows
just has to concentrate on the inner state of being, has to cut off everything outside, it is not important how things are outside, just concentrate on the essence of surviving.
thats why I realize being a fool, knowing nothing from the outside world.
thinking about cloves, hating cloves, so terrible RELATEDLESS, I could throw them in the pin. but this one is another one, more special, but I cant feel it yet. there is just the feeling of no relation. no center.
C2
going straight forward, ONE AFTER THE OTHER has to be done
singleminded, step by step going forward like the plant, the stem growing from one nod to the other, like the spine, growing upwards in life.
the stem is very strong, the leaves are weak, there is no power left for anything right and left on the long way to reach the aim. there are several steps, which have to be reached, producing at every step ONE tiny but shining blossom.
there is the feeling from all or nothing. in the dark hole everything is possible - or nothing.
some fixed ideas, so intensely occupied with myself, my inner stress, cannot realize the outer world, have to concentrate on the vital essentials.
why is it called "Büschelnelke" in german, it is not a bunch, these are just solitary blossoms, one after the other, the stem growing high, you can see the plant easily in the meadow, because of the pink colour of the blossoms. perhaps she has a strong will, can reach a bunch of aims in life, but slowly, one after the other.
C3
thinking about mother, her sparse life, reaching at an old age her independency, finding her center, her heart, her relationship with her daughter, her personality. It lasted a long time, but she hold on and on and could blossom. AT THE END. step by step.
modesty and endurance.