Pseudoleskeella nervosa
Sense proving, 27-3-2021, Utrecht, Britta Dähnrich.
Prover 1 Britta
I feel highly sensitive, very sensitive to all external stimuli. This feels horrible. I could scream because everything is so overexcited.
A little girl, all antennas extended , wants to receive everything, because she does not feel safe. She hardly can bear all this. She is still small and dependent, she cannot free herself out of this. There could be an abuse behind all this, but this is not clear.
I feel that I should put the moss on my chakra of the forehead. It feels like it belongs there. Then I put it on my heart chakra and this calms my nerves. It is like as if something is opening.
Then I put it on my left palm. The longer it stays there, the more I am getting quiet. The overexcited state disappears.
What remains is the high sensitivity but now it could be helpful.
Prover 2 Susanne Diez
Smell of algae, like at the waterside.
A small creature, shaggy, thick, wiry hair, an insect? A beetle? I want to put it on my third eye. Lie down.
Relation to the eyes, stroke my eyes, feeling as if water were running over my eyes, but it isn't, brush my eyes with something to open them.
Coldness.
Body boundaries dissolve, not being able to move, not wanting to move, feels not unpleasant.
Eyes: I open the inner eyes, a being from a water garden, like deep at the bottom of the sea, dark.
I put the second part of the moss on my heart chakra, feel a connection from the heart chakra to the 3rd eye.
Don't want to detach it from the underground, it remains connected to the depth, attached.
Down, at the bottom of the sea, sea depth, water garden, unconscious, dark, not threatening.
I played around a bit with one part, a little male being is waving at me - but it remains alien, the male could be an alien.
Trituration: C1 Susanne, together with Franz, first silent trituration, after 2/3 in dialogue.
A child or girl, maybe 8, is diving in the sea with an adult, her father or diving instructor?. The water is murky and you can't see to the bottom. Suddenly the strange feeling as if the sound of triturating is coming from another room! They now dive through a crevice into a cave, the cave is not completely filled with water, it is bright and has a narrow exit further ahead into the open air. The child doesn't really want to dive any further and sits down on a rock. Some animals are also sitting on the rocks, is there also a crocodile in the distance? Is it threatening? The adult wants to show the child a few more things and encourages her to continue diving with him. But the girl doesn't want to go on, she has lost interest, "there's nothing to see! The water is murky, it's boring, what's there to see, I don't want to go on".
A strong itch on my face, where I had put the piece of moss on my 3rd eye, then on the whole right side of my face, then further down the right side of my body. The itching distracts me completely, makes me unfocused and restless.
Feeling overwhelmed, something is too much for me, but I don't know what. I feel similar to the child.
What does the child want?, it doesn't know.
Impatience, time seems very long to me.
Violent itching, I could jump out of my skin! Restless, yawning.
As soon as I want to concentrate on the scene in the sea, this itching attacks me again.
I rub an eye on the bottom of the bowl, then I destroy it again (it feels quite aggressive: "I'll scratch your eyes out") but a new eye appears at the bottom of the bowl, bird's eye, crocodile's eye, the eyes are always there again, but always a bit different.
I am restless, can't sit still.
The girl (is it even a girl?) now sits freezing on the rock, the diving instructor? Father? Mother? goes on diving, the child, left alone, is now getting quite bored.
Child: I'm cold and it's boring.
Father: Then you'll just have to come along, look, there's certainly something to see.
Child: But I don't want to (it's defiant), I'm bored.
Father: what would you rather do?
Child: I don't know, I want to see something interesting, but it's boring when the water is so murky and you can't see anything.
Further trituration in dialogue with Franz
There is no more development, standstill, not being able to look down.
The child doesn't know what it wants to do, outside, on the beach, the mother is sitting with maybe one or two more children and a baby, it could play along there, but it doesn't like that either. Playing with a baby is also too boring for the child, no motivation to do anything, although the landscape is beautiful, it could be explored, but going out of the cave does not entice the child either, it does not want to go out of the cave, has no motivation to do so either.
The image of the "cave" gives rise to the association with "birth, or long before birth in pregnancy", sitting in utero, a certain timelessness, no motivation for any activity, also lost orientation, not wanting to go out, but it is boring inside,
The adult keeps popping up and trying to motivate the child, but he doesn't want to dive any further.
The story of Franz (C1) is about a father who cannot accept his child, he protects himself from accepting this child (with a congenital disability), this child in its weakness and disability does not fit into his man's world.
Not being able to see something, not wanting to see something, there is the association with an ultrasound examination during pregnancy (picture - "you can't see anything there"), where one does not want to admit that the child could be handicapped, that something is wrong (there are the threatening animals on the rocks that are not perceived as threatening at all), not wanting to see something, not wanting to admit something, very early in pregnancy.