.10.3 Gadolinium nitricum case
Width 6, Depth 5, Cure 8, Duration 5
A man of 57 years of age has vertigo. It feels like being drunk, as if standing uncertainly on his legs. It feels as if he’s not grounded, as if it takes him away from himself, as if he isn't in the centre of existence anymore, as if he’s hunted and persecuted. It goes together with a feeling of being absent, like a zombie. It’s worse from turning, turning his head to the left, better from relaxing and walking in the woods. It’s worse in restaurants. It's got worse over the years and lately it doesn't really disappear anymore. It’s really a burden. The vertigo started at 22 with hyperventilation. It started suddenly after a meeting, with severe heart pounding. He developed a pronounced fear of death, didn't dare to go out in the street for 2 years and looked for security with his wife, who had to stay with him all the time.
He goes into cramps to compensate for the vertigo, but then his muscles get locked. His left leg and foot get cramp, which feels unpleasant and goes together with numbness. He feels agitated, restless and anxious. His heart misses beats, sometimes only once, at other times the whole day. This goes together with cramp in his left chest. The chest complaints can alternate with allergic symptoms like sneezing and eyes that itch so that he has to rub them.
He recently took a six-month sabbatical because the balance between work and private life was gone.
He has had 3 relationships. His first marriage went well, lasting 11 years. She divorced him because she could not stand his anxieties any more. He met his second wife during group therapy. The relationship broke due to excessive differences in religious opinions and her suicidal tendency. The third relationship broke after 5 years. He could not commit himself to her, out of fear of another failure. He rejected her proposal. A year later he changed his mind, but by then she was with another man.
He was the only child of an unmarried woman. His mother lived with her parents. His grandparents had a bad marriage, which resulted in a lot of tensions, threats and real quarrels. The family was tied to living together, out of poverty. His grandmother used his mother as a Cinderella. A brother and sister of his mother's also lived at home, with a lot of quarrels between her, her parents and her brothers and sisters. Their cultural level was high, but financially and socially they were low. He developed a strong desire for harmony. Although he was loved, he had to put his fingers into his ears in order to forget the tensions.
His mother took a lot of trouble in the Second World War by going to the countryside for food. It was also a means to flee from the family. There she met his father, who took advantage of her. He heard this much later in life, as he was told in his childhood that his father had died.
As a child he wasn't happy, with the feeling “Who wants me?” and “What will people do with this child without a father and from lower neighborhood?”. He works at the university. He has a good intellect. His work can be an escape into a domain of well-being. It gives him respect, the feeling of having some value. He took a sabbatical for six months, because his physical and mental reserve was depleted. But the complaints were not gone after that.
He is a fighter, going on despite setbacks. He feels unsure of himself when lecturing.
He is a like a chameleon, as he can survive everywhere, sometimes forcing himself. He doesn't want to think in terms of good or bad, in fortune and misfortune. He sees life as potentialities. He desires to be in emotional and intellectual balance and feels vulnerable when not in balance. He is very tense, feels as if he's bursting and can only relax at certain moments. He can be very irritated in the traffic, from waiting in a queue. All his life he’s been sensitive to stress and tensions.
He feels imprisoned when at the dentist or hairdresser; he wants to be able to get away.
He’s passionate, a good lover, for when he gives himself, it goes very deep. He looks for safety and security. He has a desire for physical contact, for example to be touched, to lay his head in a woman's lap.
He’s sensitive to atmospheres.
He's intense, serious and resolute.
He cannot stand quarrels, is always looking for harmony.
His blood pressure is raised, once it has been 180 over 110.
Color preference: 13-14E (dark pruple).
Dream: his first wife coming close but fleeing at the last moment.
Weather: <- continuous gray weather.
Time: < morning, on rising.
Desire: almost everything, delicious food, cooking himself.
Aversion: slimy food, bitter.
Analysis
The desire for harmony is typical of Gadolinium. He isn't the centre of existence anymore, another expression of Gadolinium. His aversion to making choices between good or bad, fortune and misfortune came out after the first remedy. They are also strong pointers to Gadolinium.
The Lanthanides in general can be seen in his marked tension, even going into cramps. But we see it also in his sensitivity and the cultural and intellectual background.
There’s a strong nitricum tendency. He’s passionate, wants to enjoy life with a woman, likes cooking and work. His childhood problems, fears and desires for safety point to the Carbon series in general. His hyperventilation with fears in the street and restaurants is typical of nitricum. Together this leads to Gadolinium nitricum.
The remedy can be seen in: vulnerable (Carbon series) when not in emotional and intellectual balance (Gadolinium).
Confirmations
Lanthanides: < imprisoned, tense, numbness, < gray weather.
Gadolinium: harmony, balance, both sides.
Carbon series: -> security, -> safety, childhood problems.
Nitricum: child of an unmarried woman, > relaxing, > in woods, < restaurants, < dentist, < hairdresser < on the streets, cooking, -> delicious food, recovering, recuperating, able to get away.
Follow up
The day after Gadolinium nitricum MK he gets his usual complaints such as palpitations and cramps in his face and neck, but less severely. After that he starts feeling more relaxed. In many situations he can look at himself and wonders at how relaxed he remains. This is true even when the situation at work was quite hectic. He has hardly had any vertigo. 6 months and 6 repetitions of Gadolinium nitricum MK later he's feeling much better. His vertigo and palpitations are almost gone. He’s much less agitated and irritated in queues. He's more contemplative. He’s allowing himself to consider a new relationship. He’s tending towards an optimistic view of it, whereas before he feared it would become another failure.
His quality of life has risen from 50 to 70.
His vertigo and restless heart hare gone.
The first prescription was Magnesium carbonicum MK. His fear of aggression and the fights in the family were a strong indication for it. But he felt the tension rising during the first 2 weeks after the remedy. He suddenly started to breathe the wrong way, as if running after his own breath. After 17 days it diminished a little bit, the tension went down like a balloon that is losing air, but he felt exhausted. His eyes were pricking and itching.