Bonasa umbellus
Essence
They feel that something blocks their real live freedom.
They have a big issue about dirt. Everything is grose, creepy, weird. Creepy people that makes them cringe. they are disgusted with everything, their own defecation. that line between child an adult. I was going to draw a picture of man with his head up in his ass call him the „poop-smeller“.
It can arise from a youth where they were not appreciated and even abused sexually. This made them getting stuck in childhood, unable to become adult. They need to be appreciated in life, which they often don’t get.
Mind
He just can see beyond his own limited personal experience.
Obsessive-compulsive disorder.
Fear losing control.
Irritation, rage and negativity.
Choking from stuffed emotions, struggling to get them out.
Just can see beyond his own limited personal experience.
Desire of travelling as far away as possible, to wander aimlessly in nature.
Desire to go in and rip the muscles up in shreds.
Desire to chop his head of.
Artist, self expression; painting, something I am creating feeling a void or if I am in love.
Aversion protocols.
Delusion people make fun of my voice.
Restricted from sexual abuse.
Disappointment from deception.
Sadness since I was young.
Father was tyrant.
When speaking makes a pause and the she bursts out with the next point.
Denial.
Loss of self-control, I have weird sexual thoughts about students.
Aversion big crowds, they make me cringe.
Delusion: having male hormones.
Delusion: nobody listen to me.
Delusion: being small, diminished .
Delusion: being a teenager, talks and behaves as teenager.
Dream: making a film, in which the main character, a woman, ate a shrinking man and shits him out in next slum neighborhood, she was walking though the grose big junkyard and shit piles of Chinatown.
General
Desire: sugar and sweets.
Body
General: gaining weight; fast weight loss when not eating sweets,from high metabolism.
Throat!!: closing; choking; loss of voice or wasn’t being heard; sensation of a gas bubble in right collar bone, > defecation, > drinking.
Stomach: eating disorder, bulimia, overeating
Rectum!!: cracks, bleeding, bit painful.
Back: back and neck muscles locked, as in a knot; shooting pains.
Limbs: cold and sweaty feet.
Skin: acne, worse before or during menses.