5.5 Pellacalyx axillaris
Number: 64431.09
Series: Hydrogen, Carbon, Silicon and Iron series; emphasis on Iron series.
Clades: Rhizophoraceae; Violales; Fabidae.
Phase: 3; Subphase: 1.
Stage: 9.
Mind
Mother, baby, foetus, embryo.
Mother feels me, she hears my cries but she is lost in her grief.
Big families with lots of soft sisters and brothers in different ages from young to old.
You should work together, but taking yourself may cause a lack in others.
Confused, helpless, shy, alone, lonely, due to obesity.
Longing for contact, hidden.
Desire to really be there.
Almost, but not completely finished.
On the verge of bursting, a nitrogen feeling.
Everyone sees me.
Unprotected, vulnerable.
Strong, vitality, but held in.
Hard outside one cannot approach it, soft inside.
Stiff, rigid, restraint, scarcity.
Trying to escape.
Hidden, alone, heavy.
General
Sensation: stiff, rigid, heavy, weak, hanging.
Pellacalyx axillaris, proving
Picture proving, 12-5-2011, Utrecht, seminar Visualising overview.
Prover 1.
Vulnerable, grief, alone.
Order, freedom.
The past, far away.
Rich, wise, silent.
Lost the way, dementia.
Stiffness.
Prover 2.
Feeling of heaviness is in abdomen, going from the upper part downwards, feeling of heaviness and weakness in the rectum and perineum, sensation of prolapse or as if from haemorrhoids.
A feeling of constriction, contraction, in lungs and bronchi, as if they cannot take up oxygen any more.
Restless, in a hurry as if persecuted, as if I have done something wrong but I don’t know what.
It is as if I have to hide but I don’t have the energy and the oxygen for it.
Prover 3.
Calling from afar, from a distance, hoping for an answer.
Prover 4.
Pain in the region of stomach.
Prover 5.
Tough and vulnerable.
Prover 6.
Rest, overview.
Throat region.
Inconspicuous.
Fresh, carrying capacity.
Prover 7.
Firm.
Ready to fall.
Chance.
For my own self.
Future.
Ready to break out.
Prover 8.
I have to vomit something as if hidden things have to work themselves up, without me doing anything, and they get out by themselves, I am not nauseous. It is from the lower abdomen, the centre of gravity, or where it feels as if in a vice, it is behind the diaphragm.
Prover 9.
Pricking in the cervical region, a light pressure.
Pricking in the nose.
Rest.
Pain in the pit of the stomach.
Prover 10.
Uterus.
Cough.
Sperms.
Ovaries.
Prover 11.
A very tall and narrow waterfall, I start looking up at it, it is a spray of mist, very large, pooling at the base of the waterfall.
Sensation of falling backwards, down a long distance into the earth, it is cold but not fearful.
My neck is not supporting my head, my head is falling forwards because of the heaviness, it goes together with dizziness and light-headedness.
Prover 12.
A feeling of old washing machines at the back of my head, going round and round.
Then the feeling that everyone behind me could see into the inside of my head because now I have half a head. I have got to stand up very straight in case all the contents will fall out.
Prover 13.
Babies.
A mother or trapped in grief.
Her babies needing her nurture.
A loving woman but locked into a brief state.
Help me, help me mother.
She feels me, she hears my cries but she is lost in her grief.
Prover 14.
Lonely due to obesity.
Longing for contact, but that is hidden, one has to look very careful to see that.
Hard outside, one cannot approach it.
Prover 15.
A hard and dry outside, ugly and repulsive especially the flowers.
But flowers may be soft inside.
The colour yellow is repulsive, they look like insects.
A hard and dry stem, but I feel they must be green and have a lot of sap inside.
Prover 16.
I feel full of promise, cheerful.
Chubby and happy.
Vulnerable.
Yummy.
Ready to be taken.
Tremendously sleepy.
Optimistic.
Prover 17.
Hard and difficult.
Impenetrable.
I have to protect myself.
Alone
Bald and cold from the outside.
I feel it in my back, quite high.
Prover 18.
An intense desire for freedom, to open yourself and to reassure yourself, to be allowed to be really there, vitality but held in, waiting, a moment and then..
Almost, but not completely finished.
On the verge of bursting, a nitrogen feeling.
Held back by myself.
Power held in, not ready yet.
Hidden, alone, heavy.
Vulnerable versus strong.
Prover 19.
Central, the biggest, a strong urge to look at it, it demands all the attention.
The small ones are much milder.
Prover 20.
A small flower but a big fruit, full.
Working hard with sweat on the forehead.
No leaves, bald.
Prover 21.
Inside soft, outside hard.
Fragile but strong and heavy.
Together, but still alone.
Compact.
Prover 22.
Young buds.
Life force is at a young age, becoming, the potential to become.
No nonsense.
The first step to, but not ripe or ready.
Danger to get into it.
Prover 23.
Dropping.
Bursting and popping cysts.
Heavy.
Leaning and hiding.
Life, but out of dryness.
Freshness, out of starkness.
A new form and old regenerate.
Prover 24.
Bitter.
Griping.
Frightened, small.
Bursting, fullness, bloated.
Trying hard.
Prover 25.
Closed.
Protection.
Benign growths.
Difficult to connect.
Prover 26.
Feeling of warmth and space, coming from the upper abdomen and the diaphragm going to the region of the heart.
Grief, a full feeling above and under and behind the eyes.
Prover 27.
Together but alone.
Playful, artistic.
Siblings.
Tough and sensitive.
Mice.
Tight feeling in calves.
Prover 28.
Opening of the chest.
Mucus in the throat.
In the heart region heaviness and sadness.
A deep sadness of the heart.
A lump feeling in the throat, bottled up.
Stiff neck and heavy head.
Prover 29.
Honey drops.
Embryo, pregnant, not knowing yet.
Fig.
Prover 30.
Cheering.
Pushing power.
Growth.
Blowing up.
Sweet sour.
Prover 31.
Palpitations.
Heaviness when I close my eyes.
Rest.
Prover 32.
Determined in a desperate way.
Stiff, rigid.
Lonely.
Chile.
Confused.
Helpless.
Shy.
Warm hands, hot palms.
Prover 33.
Little creative, on top of.
Heaviness, pendulous, lightly sweaty.
Curiosity.
Energy.
Thought hamamelis is the answer.
Stomach puncture.
Ligaments sharp.
Restraint, scarcity.
Babies.
Prover 34.
Big families with lots of soft sisters and brothers in in different ages from young to all.
You should work together, but taking for yourself may cause a lack in others.
Prover 35.
Hanging sensation.
Trying to keep things inside.
Loneliness.
Trying to escape.
Hardness versus softness.
Fibroid.
Ovaries.
They are looking at me.