664.33.05 Primula veris, Case
Woman, 50, fatigue.
Her father dismissed her as having no worth because she was not a boy. He was very domineering, often in rage and using frequent alcohol. Her father molested her a lot. She had to sit on his lap, he was fondling with her breasts, wanted to see her naked. It brought her to a horrible frozen state, mute. In such a state she becomes invisible, disappears, feeling a ghost, ethereal; she gets out of contact with herself, her belly, her warmth, everything feels cold and flat. Her mother did not protect her.
She lacks the joy that makes life full.
She easily feels embarrassed, shrinking, fears that what she knows is not right, that she is or will be seen as stupid. She fears being judged harshly.
She had anorexia in puberty, did not want to grow up. Her menarche was at 21.
Her first pregnancy was a kind of betrayal because she belonged to her father and sex with another man meant she did not belong to her father. She felt as if she was a slave, as if she was blocked, thwarted, not being allowed to live or express herself.
She is a psychotherapist.
She is very sensitive.
Analysis
Lanthanides: psychotherapist; very sensitive.
Iron series: aversion becoming adult.
Phase 3: feeling a ghost, ethereal; out of contact with herself; embarrassed, shrinking; dismissed; sexual abuse; betrayal; slave.
Primulaceae: father molested her; mother did not protect her; did not want to grow up; blocked, thwarted, not being allowed to live or express herself.
Stage 5: wanting to avoid father, not doing it.
Analysis
After Primula vulgaris MK she feels perfect. It is a complete turn around, a stepping out of an old matrix. Her shame disappears and she can feel her joy and passion.