Number: 63351.11
Series: hydrogen, Carbon and Silicon series, emphasis Silicon series.
Clades: Iridaceae; Asparagales; Liliidae; Lilianae; Angiospermae.
Phase: 5; Subphase: 1.
Stage: 11.
Botany: pollen blacken.
Introduction
They have had an impulsive start with relationships, falling in love with the first the best to get away from home, or just from being impulsive. They are very passionate and impulsive, getting into the wrong kind of relationships. Then they get disappointed being left alone. They can get other disappointment in life like death of children, or incest earlier in life, or their husband having incest with their child. This all makes them feel they are better off staying alone, being single. But they do it with style and elegance, being friendly to others, but keeping themselves solitary, unbound.
Mind
Old elegant lady, living for her beautiful garden.
Old grief, from having lost a child, born death, husband was gone.
Abused by stepfather, close brother knew it, but did not prevent it.
Blood shame, incest, love between brother and sister, covered up.
Red cross.
Start puberty.
Solution: allow love above incest; stand up for love.
Discussion
Image of woman, elegant refined woman, very British, wants to flee the house, staying in a beautiful English garden; old grief about her she wouldn't show; she had given birth to a dead child in Africa, her husband had left her and the child; she could not share the grief; even more than the dead child: abuse in the past, by non biological father; she always had been close to her brother; who had witnessed the abuse by step father; brother did not help; also not after death of baby.
Prover 5: notices a red mark on bottom of the bowl: incest.
There must be something with the brother: incest.
Deep love between brother and sister, not allowed anymore after puberty.
Sperm of plant made hands dirty.
Solution: love is even above everything.
Analysis
Phase 5: passionate.
Subphase 1: naive; alone, single.
Iridaceae: staying single after disappointment in love and passion.
Watsonia: women passionate, then also naive, disappointed, stay alone, never go into it again, for the rest of her life.
Proving
Trituration proving, 3-10-2012, Kenton on sea.
Prover 1
Queazy, bit nauseous, motion sickness.
It is all flower, does not break up, no powder.
Before starting looking at pictures.
Dyslexia?
Only thing that grows in Prover 1’s garden.
A tall and elegant lady: all she cares about is her garden, she loves her garden. Does not like to show anybody her garden. Refined, introverted lady, shows you her garden, if she really trusts you. She has been hurt in the past, does not like to be fooled. She lives on her own, protects herself from the outer world. English lady, hurt, but not hard.
Happy if not bothered by others.
Prover 5
Flower still not gone, will stay there until the end.
A bit sticky, if you do not care it is easy, creamy.
Plant survives the wind.
The inner core is bendable, not destroyed by hurt, however, has been hurt.
The English lady does not like interference with her garden, she likes people to appreciate her garden. Respect is very important.
Tall, upright, polite.
Silica-like, but not as rigid, more vulnerable.
Times goes quickly.
Self contained, very creative.
Smooth, to do something.
Like corn flower.
Playful, like a painting, drawing of a garden.
Afternoon tea with neighbors, talking about gardens, not about ourselves really.
Prover 12
Composure.
Our gardens??
Which husband??
Dead child and husband gone.
She did not want him to stay because she was too proud.
She never cried about that Baby died, very sad.
It was a baby girl.
Grief struck, bent over in garden.
Not indifferent, but no tears.
Has to force herself to do things.
Arthritic hands, not easy, but never complaining.
Blowing it away, cannot hold on to it, how can I hold on to it?
Gardening, planting is like nurturing a baby.
Disconnection to feelings.
Very empty, no tears, no emotions.
House is very tidy, everything is nicely folded.
Quietness, everyone is quiet, moves around her quietly.
Colonial.
One day just walked out of house, did not tell anybody, and went back to England. Just carried on, it just IS.
Today is the day of baby’s death.
One dead tree in the garden.
Disappointment also that the brother did not help and support.
Just waiting to die herself.
Some gentleman friend, the brother, who really cares about her, but he does not know either.
She does not eat much. The maids are worried about her.
She does not want to go too deep, NOT superficial; no laughter, all quiet.
Hopeless.
You have to go into it to overcome, but do not want to go into it. Like a ghost.
Very soft, stable fragility.
Not much roots, can root anywhere, does not mind, no desires.
Two bulbs, short ones together, you can not kill them, you divide them and plant them in a new location and they will grow there. The same way how they were brought from one country to an other country, England.
Now she is in her bed, elegant night gown, books on flowers next to her and flowers on the covers. She is thinking of the grave, which is not in England. The personnel is taking care of it, she never went back herself.
She is perfectly dressed again in the morning and goes back to her garden.
She only shows her grief and sorrow when she is by herself.
The husband was gone, somehow never there. She choose him only because she wanted to get away from home. To fall in love was just a concept, but her own father was an important reason.
Her brother always knew, he could have helped her.
The mother was an alcoholic, the other sister a frivolous woman, the only one to help her was the brother. The husband was a friend of her brother, which was another reason why he did not support her when the baby died.
The brother knew that is was not right what he was doing, also that she should never have married that man.
The pink color is disappearing now, only the walls of the mortar are still pink.
The father was probably in love with her, he abused her and her sister. He could not help it because he loved her so much and his own wife was an alcoholic. She and her brother are not the fathers biological children, only the small sister.
The brother knew about the abuse, even watched it and looked her straight into the eyes, but closed the door. He was worried about the family’s financial stability, which was provided by the father.
That was the reason why she had to be married far away. She also wanted to go. The brother had betrayed and disappointed her.
Now he is coming daily for afternoon tea.
He is about the same like she is. He lives by himself, cannot reach his emotions, wants to apologize and explain but cannot do that either.
He wants her to forgive him.
She has forgiven him already, but he is carrying a lot more guilt.
Dead baby is from or could be from the stepfather.
Relief at finding this out.
Finding out, someone causes.
INCEST.
Her brother was in love with her, this was never mentioned and was never talked about.
Prover 12 wants to leave, she is horrified and neither one of them went down with it.
Real incest.
Brother and sister.
Forbidden Love.
Fear of admitting love for his sister it to himself.
It is the fact that they never have admitted it to each other. Neither one of them is starting to talk about if, both out of the same reasons not wanting to hurt the other and cause even more pain. To cause more suffering.
The sisters suffering was so big already, the grief and pain. It is over and too late now. We have missed our chance, could have just fled years ago, but destroyed our lives. Both are trapped equally in that story.
Imagining incest between brother and sister, love and sex have to be hidden. It can not be, it should not be, it is pain, it is missed opportunity, having made wrong decisions, sacrificing oneself.
When is incest okay? What is not allowed and why does it happen?
Prover 1 has to wash her hands. It was okay for her before, now she feels dirty, “Die Hände in Unschuld waschen”.
Prover 1 and Prover 12 disagree with Prover 5 and only want to talk about love between siblings.
The red spot on the bottom of the mortar stays like a cross.
It is LOVE.
Their love is represented by the flower, their love is still there, but they still have not admitted it.
A clean proving, but the blood is still there.
Prover 12 still tried to cover it up, Prover 1 and Prover 5 keep uncovering it.
The answer is love.
The seeds make it dirty, or give the feeling of dirty hands.
Feeling filthy.
The sperm is the problem, that is the one that makes the genetic problem.
love is not the problem, love does not make you dirty.
There is no solution. How can there be a solution.
Sweetish taste.
Do not want the love to go.
Do not let it go. The one real thing. Such perfect beauty in any kind of form it comes.
Do not scrape it away.
Prover 5: it is dirty, it is incest, it has to go.
How would it feel if it were okay to be in love with everybody?
How can love not be pure and innocent?
Who are we to judge what is right or wrong?
Whole plant: about what you endure in life and overcome and still go on.
You can not avoid love, not control love.
Stand up for true love.
Away with moral standard.