Case 1.16
This case was published in the article mentioned above. Therefore I will summarise here those aspects that I consider essential for the constitutional picture of Trillium pendulum.
A 40-year-old woman with symphysiolysis pubis after a very difficult pregnancy and a very traumatic birth. During delivery the umbilical cord broke, so mother and child both lost a lot of blood. After the delivery the mother kept bleeding profusely. History of splenectomy after thrombocytemia.
Appearance
She has a gentle smile and speaks slowly in a very controlled manner. All her energy seems to be focused in her head. Only her head moves, but this, also, in a consciously controlled way. She seems to be aware of every word she speaks, and selects them with care. She makes a meticulous, precise impression, not in her appearance, but in expressing herself. She does not seem to put a lot of effort in the way she looks. The intellect is where her focus is, and although emotionally she makes a more vulnerable and female impression, her intellect holds her together. She has big, expressive eyes.
The fact that her severe physical complaints restrain her from acting as she desires is very difficult for her. 'I can only talk about it as if I am watching it from a distance. As if there is a distance between my body and myself.' (MIND; CONFUSION; identity, as to his; duality, sense of)' She has had bad health from childhood on, and has always been fighting her body.
(LINKS 2/97) Whenever she was ill she would just work even harder; she could not accept any hindrance from her body. 'I hate to be ill.' She used to have everything under control and was very conscientious in work and housekeeping. 'I have a "super-woman-syndrome", to be able to perform as a mother and in my work.'
Owls
She wears a brooch with two owls on it. 'I'm a great collector of owls. I'm just mad about owls. The goddess Athena used to wear owls as a sign of both austerity and wisdom. In the past I was very afraid of failing my exams, and I used an owl as a mascot. The wonderful thing about owls is that they always know the solution.' She has many books on owls, and appeared very knowledgeable about the subject.
It crossed my mind that she herself actually had a lot in common with owls.
She had total control over her feelings and body with her mind. 'I can talk to my body as if it is not mine.' 'They can touch my body, but they have to keep away from my head, my mind.' 'This is my way of survival.' In her work as a manager she is very good at conflict management. She is very convincing in this, and good at finding common goals. As a wise person, she is able to stand above the different parties and bring them together.
Three months after she married, an ovarian cyst broke open in her abdomen.
It contained hair, cartilage and teeth. 'The first thing I thought was that it looked like an owl's ball.' Analysis
Since I had no clear picture of a remedy, and her pelvic complaints fitted Trillium pendulum, with the main symptom of sensation as if the hips and back were falling to pieces, ameliorated by tight bandages (Boericke), I gave her one dose of Trillium pendulum 200K. On another level one could say that her intellectual control over herself, was also a kind of tight bandage, holding her body and emotions together.
Trillium pendulum is represented in the following rubrics:
* - EXTREMITY PAIN; BROKEN, sensation as if; Pelvis, as if falling apart * - EXTREMITIES; DISLOCATED feeling; Hip
* - EXTREMITIES; WEAKNESS; Hip
* - FEMALE; PAIN; sore, tenderness; Pelvic bones
* - FEMALE; RELAXATION of genitals; pelvic region
* - GENERALITIES; BANDAGING, amel.
* - GENERALITIES; BINDING UP, bandaging amel.
* - GENERALITIES; FAINTNESS, fainting; hemorrhage; post partum * - GENERALITIES; FAINTNESS, fainting; loss of fluids, from; blood * - GENERALITIES; HEMORRHAGE; blood; coagulate, does not Follow-up after six weeks
When I told her the common name of Trillium pendulum is 'birthroot', she said: 'my daughter has confronted me with what I have lost. I must have been like this too. And I once said to a friend of mine: "I wish there was a remedy that would enable me to be born again, something like a birthroot".'
She reported having been exceptionally emotional, with unexplainable weeping. A grief mixed with anger.
After the remedy she had a dream in which she relived the birth of her child. But now the birth was not painful and troublesome, but everything went fine, quickly and smooth, and she experienced the whole birth process as something wonderful and beautiful. After the delivery all the pains were gone. 'I felt so good that I wanted to to remain in the dream.'
After the dream she caught a horrible cold, and lost her voice. Normally in a condition like this she used to just work harder, so nobody would notice.
For the first time she stayed home, and asked her husband to stay home as well and take care of the baby. 'This is the first time in my life that I just stopped. I felt very proud. It just went by itself. I've always gone to the limit, and was actually very self-destructive.'
She lost a lot of fluids and weight; since the pregnancy she had gained twenty kilos. The pelvic pains subsided gradually.
Follow-up
After fifteen weeks
'I have started to become more angry, as if I am losing the control I have over myself. I can even lash out. I don't want to be pushed around anymore.
Perhaps the varnish is wearing off a bit.' 'It feels threatening to lose control.' 'I did not allow myself to get angry in the past. My father and sister quarrelled a lot and I did not want to be like them. I just scratched anger out. My anger was much more lethal. I would reject a person verbally in a hard and icy-cold way.'
Follow-up
After nine months
'I still like to do things perfectly, but can also more easily let go of it.' 'I am more stable than ever before. Resist less against a cold. My "super-woman syndrome" is gone. The fact that my body is not that healthy has become less important. I don't need to be the best in everything anymore. I am more able to enjoy things and can act silly now.'
When she was four years old she walked to the park to eat poisonous berries. Her teacher had told her what a beautiful place heaven was, and she wanted to go there. She asked the teacher not to tell her sister about it, otherwise she would follow her again. A few months later she went into a coma (MIND; UNCONSCIOUSNESS, coma, stupor) due to a septic osteomyelitis.
'I remember hearing my grandmother saying, "Now she is dead". I have had many dreams in which I was laying under a sheet, and that people thought I was dead (MIND; FEAR; death, of). I tried to tell them that I was just asleep, but could not express myself.' She used to hate her sister intensely. 'I've always felt guilty that I was welcome as the oldest child, and that my parents did not really want to have her.'
Follow-up
After two years
The pelvic complaints came back a little before menses. 'As a child I already knew a lot of the things that would happen to me, and with my daughter I have the same feeling. I know there is a lot she will have to go through, and I cannot prevent these things from happening. I have to prevent myself from getting into a symbiotic relationship with her. She is very wise for her age. When I was a child, I felt much older, and I was drawn to older children. I did not want to be a child and I told my parents that I wanted to go back to my former parents, to my previous life. I would talk to my 'real' parents when I was alone. I said goodbye to them when I was an adult.'
Trillium pendulum was indeed the very birthroot she felt she needed. She re-experienced the birth of her child, and was reborn herself.
She has been fine now for more than a year. The remedy was repeated after six months, and after two years and three months.