Torula cerevisiae
Essence
The situation can arise from were a child cannot delimit from her mother, because it senses the needs of the mother to strong and feels strongly the urge to support the mother in her needs. One is bound to the needs of the others. They feel suppressed, have not enough self-worth. They cannot free themselves from dependencies.
Mind
Like to play the clown.
Treated badly by mother.
Threatening abortion.
Send to a monastery by mother.
Delusion that one is okay and acceptable only when one works hard, all the time, like a horse pulling a heavy car up hill.
Irritable and nervous.
Nervous tension at night, can’t sleep.
Sensitive to criticism.
Fear poverty.
Emotion: unprotected; alone in the world, lost in the world; powerless, violence, explosions.
Dreams: blood, terror.
Dream: I lie naked in bed with a young woman and I caress her. I know her, she is the daughter of a other patient of me. The dream is changing its scenery, I’m in a boat with this young woman and paddle with her on small canals. I feel somehow uncomfortable, I have the feeling she wants something from me, what I do not want to give her: love, sexuality, etcetera. It is a confused feeling. I don’t know how to signal that I don not want more, but in a way I fell bound to her, not free. The scene of the dream is changing again. I sit in front of a house with this young woman and her hole family in the sun. I feel very uncomfortable as the situation that I was rowing with her alone on the canals is a compromising situation. I feel guilty. I don’t know what to do, I just want to leaf, but I cannot, I’m bound in this situation. I feel too strong in me what the others want from me, this is what hinders me to go my own way.
Workaholic.
Regeneration versus conservation of tradition.
Effervescence versus daily bread.
Dreams: dogs fighting.
General
General: coldness.
Sleep: sleepless, < tension; disturbed with much restlessness.
Body
General: anaphylactic states, < proteins, < enzymes; discharges sour, yeasty, mouldy odour.
Head: headache, aching, sharp, back of head and neck, < constipation. Nose: sneezing; catarrhal discharge from posterior nares.
Mouth: Bad taste
Lungs: asthma < baking bread; wheezing.
Stomach: indigestion, < food allergies.; nausea; indigestion; belching of gas.
Abdomen: sore, all over; fullness; rumbling, pains shift; IBS, irritable bowl syndrome.
Rectum: flatulence; constipation; dysentery.
Back: backache.
Limbs: tired, weak, from elbows and knees down; hands cold like ice, go to sleep easily.
Skin: eczema, itching, ankles; boils, recurrent; tinea versicolor; carbuncles, suppuration.