644.34.17 Stillingia sylvatica, Case
Woman, 40, genital herpes.
She is furious towards her husband and the world. It is a suppressed anger; she had to adapt, be loyal to the church and her parents. She is asking who she is, if she can be herself. She feels dirty, abandoned.
She has allergies to cheese and alcohol, which give rise to a bloated gut.
She has herpes on her lips and especially genitals, attacks lasting for days, lot of itching and pain around anus, perineum. She acquired it from her drama teacher. It has a horrible impact on her sex life. Sex makes her feel alive but that is impossible now. She is crying, despairing that she cannot get rid of it.
She has hayfever and an inflamed left nipple.
Her marriage is moderate; her husband talks little.
Her parents were very strict. Her mother was prudish and moralistic and Christian, who used her father as a bogeyman. Her father was also normative, moralistic. They had to fit into the pattern, could not go their own way.
The parents feared what the neighbours could say. It gave her the feeling of being a foetus in a corner, powerless in connection with her father, mother and omnipotence.
As a child she was calm and quiet, reading many stories, living in the stories. She never dirtied anything and she had to wear her sister’s clothes. She was the best behaved child in the class.
In puberty she rebelled. She had many struggles at home, wearing short skirts. She became very dissolute as a student, drinking, smoking dope, having casual contacts.
She made a drawing how she feels: a tube full of shit where she is sucked in. All her obligations push her into the ground. Fantasy helps her out of it.
Fear: disease.
She is very bright.
Analysis
Euphurbiaceae: herpes zoster, genitalis; suppressed anger.
Stage 17: sucked in a tube full of shit.