Proving Silene inflata
Guild, 26-5 2003
Typewritten by Jean Pierre
Catch fly
Silene: gewoon, maan
Silenen = mythology, elementary, cheerfull drunkard, always foolowing Dyonisos,
Silene: ghosts of springs and rivers, water and bubbles when flowing, give advise, coming from the horse.
Themes
Naive
You may have done something wrong and you don't know what.
Conformism, fear opinion of others.
Simple.
Empty, hollow, pressure.
Oops.
Abdomen and chest.
It can't get out.
Vertebra prominent.
Jean Pierre
First sounds "Cum sancto spiritu" from Bach's Hohe Messe. Doubt if I will let it be heard here.
A large violet rod appears, at the same angle as the world axis (±23 degrees).
Then it changes into a semi-circular scimitar. I can see the hand holding it.
Plant itself:
Cheerful, extrovert, open.
Sensitive to all winds.
On the lookout, but also vulnerable to the things that come from outside. If you protect that, you can't let your inner energy go out very well either.
I didn't see anything.
Music "Hohe Messe" of Bach with text "Cum sancto spriritu".
Music in my computer, but they will think it weird when I let it hear the others.
Big violet bar, in an angle of the axis of the world, it changes in a scimitar with 180 degrees curve (normal 120 degrees), I can see the hand holding and gracefully moving the sword.
Marguerite:
Constipation. A bit of abdominal pain. Feels a bit dull.
Christmas tree.
Thought of radio activity, i.e. Activity on the radio.
Dead rat cleaned up in the garden, a hard ordeal, scary such a dead beast. Goes through her, through chest.
Could not continue to associate, now only loose fragments.
Plant itself:
Happy, fresh, tingling, spring. Deeply from the ground, extracting substances and converting them into scattered joy.
Foot chakra open. Lots of activity in the roots, and little thinking. The energy rises from the roots to the heart level.
Individual practice of religion is not accepted. (Muslim theme).
Flatus.
Christmas tree.
Radioactivity = radio activity, active on the radio.
Could not think further, superficial associations.
Fatigue
No stool since Saturday, little abdominal pain.
Dead stiff rat in the garden this morning, heavy test for me, frightening, taking it on a schop, feeling of anxiety and emptiness in chest.
Happy.
Leo
Relationship with nature.
Feels like a deep remark, but otherwise it is nothing.
Cramped feeling in the lower abdomen.
Dream last night:
Adobe (biodegradable, freedom idea) wall with bars on it, and he's kind of demolishing that wall, scraping it and breaking down the arrows. There are soldiers behind that wall, sitting in some kind of courtyard. The soldiers are going to chase him, then he suddenly gets huddled up on his knees to make him stumble, which he managed to do. Felt very clever.
Plant himself:
Independent plant, but supported by family.
Deep, not deep.
Relationship with nature.
Cramp in lower abdomen.
Dream: clay stone walls, with bars on it, I break the wall down, trying to loosen the bars; military men are behind the wall, start to persecute me, I run away, then I suddenly I go sit in elkaar and the soldiers stumbles over me; I felt smart, free.
Arnold
Vibration and pulling in the face, eyelids and cheeks. Strikingly strong. A lot of saliva, looks like mercurius.
Stitches in the chest, pressure in the forehead.
Mentally emotional nothing.
Plant itself::
Dreaming away, sinking away, drowsy.
A fine light, a young girl's feeling, very light feeling.
That's all I could squeeze out.
Trembling, jerking in face, cheek, eyelid.
Salivation mouth copious.
Stitching, contracting in chest.
Pressing forehead.
Maarten
Pressure in head, and cavity in chest and back sternum. Threat feeling. "What did I do wrong", as if you had committed a crime, for which you are persecuted, could not find out what that is. Despair because of that.
Went through a green landscape, Amazon landscape, but with Dutch trees. Over the water through the green.
Pressure in head, occiput, sinus, < sensation of threat, being persecuted, as if committed something wrong, a crime, not knowing what, leading to despair "what do I have to do now".
Hollow feeling in chest, pressing.
Going through green landscape on a boat, a lot of trees around me.
Anne
VODS worse than usual. Reading on the screen, retyping the whole word rather than using the spell checker.
No deep acting agent for her. Attention flew in all directions.
C-7 very stinging, warm and sharp w.b. shape.
Plant itself:
Vulnerable, but protected by the grass of the environment, familiar environment. Felt quite unique (stage 10). Kind of self-confidence, happy, light feeling.
Concentration gone.
Not deep acting remedy.
Attention flowing to all directions.
C7 felt very prominent, warm and sharp, felt irritating.
Hearing all kinds of noises.
Documentary: training of rats to find clean mines.
Vision less, difficult reading.
Rob
A special task, but I'll wait and see.
A bit of tension in the neck.
Crazy dream this morning: A trainee doctor lived in an apartment with wife and child. Surprised that he was full of acne and did nothing about it. Then he went to look at it again, and then it wasn't too bad.
Ass: Contact would be distracted by seeing an acne.
Image of the plant itself: Inflated, reluctant.
Empty, vague.
Tension in neck.
This morning: a special task, but I will await it.
Dream: An doctor's assistant had a lot of acne, didn't treat it, when I looked more carefully the acne turned out to be not that bad. [A physiotherapist I know has severe acne, but she doesn't treat it, I think it will disturb the contact with your patients]
Jan
Nervous, anxious, shaky. Feeling that something is going to happen, something with illness, poverty, family. Not safe in the world. Need to talk, talk fast, about everything that can go wrong, and has gone wrong.
Abdominal complaints and chest complaints.
They're not visual or auditory people, it's just feeling.
Shy but friendly, like a thinner version of Archie Bunker's wife: Chattering, simple people, obeying and trusting the government.
Nervous, anxious, trembling.
Fear something will happen, vague, health, family, poverty.
Desire protection.
Loquacious, talking fast and nervously about all their fears.
Abdomen.
Chest, heart: nervous.
Not visual or auditory, but sensing.
Sex; just doing it for the husband.
Arnold later
Another feedback on the proving with the Guild. I think we reacted much deeper than the 'symptoms' showed. I only realized this afterwards in the car. I remembered that Rob remarked how the others could feel all this when JP was speaking. He clearly showed that he felt like an idiot. Only in the car did I realize that I had felt the same way in the morning, and very strongly even. Apparently I paid too much attention to what I didn't notice how I felt. It was my feeling after the 'official proving' that I now describe. When JP was speaking I also had the feeling that I was outside the group, as if I didn't know anything, as if I couldn't do anything. I also got a bit irritated with JP: like, is not so intellectual OH and man, what I feel is also important, even if it is less important. I noticed that I was quickly irritated with others and therefore excluded myself from the group. I felt excluded because I also had the feeling that I knew nothing about homeopathy. In the garden I hardly recognized the plants. I felt like a minkukel and thought I was already becoming a bit demented [really]. In the car I realized that this theme was also told by the patient on your video and I realized that Rob had also expressed it. So the themes: when it comes to work you feel the lesser, you don't belong and you are anxious about health. The next day I was dull, but I noticed that in spite of that I was much more creative in practice. Today I am no longer dull and energetic. You have to call Rob as well.
Another remark: after a case of a boy who got a headache from lemon, I was RW through the works. Massimo's symptom of Citrus limonum and Citrus vulgaris: Much ambition, withdraw at the point of reaching his highest ambition. So something for Stage 9?