Case
A man, 30 years, a spiritual seeker.
Trembling in body, fear of failing, that everything will breakdown.
Pains in left neck, extending to left fingers, hand.
Head feels tense, cannot concentrate.
Fear of selling his house, and spend the money, after which he is not being able to buy a house anymore.
Protein in urine and blood. Punction in kidney, no clearness from that.
Difficulty earning his money, he is a trainer/coach now.
Spiritual seeker, has been a pupil of a medicine-man of the Indians.
Very strict with himself, and self-punishment. Compulsion in touching things.
He was doing a vision quest with this Indian shaman.
Dreams of black women, came to him to eat him.
In the past he was the emotional filling of his mother, the replacement of his father.
His girlfriend is good now, she didn't like the medicine man, she thought he should stop doing that.
< noon
Desires chocolate.
Feels encaged, asking for help and asking for food.
He had received Helianthus because of fevers and kidney problems.
Afterwards he got the same state as after he had stopped with that medicine man. Idea that he has failed. Felt scattered around.
Idea that he is not good enough. Difficult to make decisions, because it can sometimes be wrong. Also been with a Sufi teacher and that was not possible.
You get the feeling that he is very tough, can handle things for a long time.
Being scattered around and de delusions (all kind of erroneous ideas about the body) brought Jan to Sabadilla.
It is the idea that a woman is pregnant without having a relationship, and that people in such a situation can see that it is not pure. Fear of being excluded.
Sabadilla has a delusion of being weird, not belonging to the world.
Sabadilla is about Stage 16 and 17.