Platygyrium repens
Sense proving, 27-3-2021, Utrecht, Helena van Dijk.
Prover 1
Iniemienie like a mouse…. As if I have to wake it up. It is almost not doable alone, I need someone to do it together, make a trituration, to open it up? I have difficulty concentrating, it is more difficult to get into its story.
It is closed up. Tight together. When I pet it, it is like petting the skin of a mouse. I am in corner where nobody sees me. What am I doing? I am too obedient. I obediently do what I have to do.
I ‘m not spiritually engaged, not enthousiastic, I am used. For the good as well as for the bad, also to protect.
I’m in a sort of Robin Hood movie feeling, there is good and bad, they torture each other, therefore there is movement, motion, and that stretches up, too change. Because it will give a tension, like of ampère. Energy can transmit, move, by it.
We’re so tight upon eachother that information will not get lost. We keep each other warm. Sometimes one of us jumps out a bit, like stretching itself up, make itself longer, like sticking your head above the rest, to explore the surroundings, it looks a bit like the periscope from a submarine it looks. Can we move on? Can we transmit, move, the whole group? In every direction. We are very very careful. We hesitate, do we or don’t we? Actually is a bit exciting but tense because actually I’d rather swim in the water, I still come from the see, there I felt good, floating, dobbing in being. Then I don’t have to do anything. I still remember that. On land I have to take so many decisions. I goes slowly because I still have to find out how to move, how to shift myself here. It all is very rough here. That is why we stay so close to one another. The information is there as soon as one of us is aware. Then we hug each other giggling with joy. And véry carefully we take a step. A real step but carefully, not to disturb anything. Shift and change, I’m still inventing how to do that. In water it was more about being moved so how do I have to do it myself now?
(Later I see on the internet that the seeds are like I described above, with stem and heads…) The branch we all sit upon gives us firmness and we need that because there is some firmness lacking, I wobble. I don’t want to climb too high because then I will fall in the water. (later I learn this moss often grows on willow)
So it is also about seeing, seeing something new, explore, discover, and then move towards it. But only when it is nice, fun. If we move together as a hole, we retire from feeling, that helps to endure. It is nice when the sun shines, that can also be on a mountain, in the misty cold gusts of wind, like the sun vaguely comes through. We can also sustain in area’s where the sun does not shine so much. I still like water.
Physically my head is heavy and my legs aren’t there so much. My head is tumbling forward and it is like my nose and mouth are one big hole. It is a bit difficult, inconvenient. How to breath, how to drink or eat. But I have to do it with that. Why does my breath catches in my throat and doesn’t it flow without being bothered of it? (it feels like a cleft lip!!!)
My feet are bend, not to stand on it, like these feet of Chinese women that are bend when they are young). And I don’t feel them. It is more like the tail of a seal in its function. I absolutely cannot stand straight on it. I am more head now. And I lose my concentration, I’m going to do other things, so I’m doing it for a while and then again not. I also don’t dare to sit up straight. But I do dare to sit bend. I’m sitting bend with my back.
Phase 5? Or Phase 1? and very much Stage 5 !!!