Phacelia remedy
A girl, 20 years old.
First consultation, July 2016
She was treated by a number of homeopaths from various schools; and she had about 30 different prescriptions over 15 years.
Chief complaint:
“Dryness in the eyes. It is permanent. It is a big problem, it started with conjunctivitis, 6 years ago. It is burning, as if there is sand in the eyes. My eye lenses get dry at once. I frown, screw up my eyes strongly, I squint and blink. I want to press my eyelids to squeeze out a tear. It is worse from fatigue, from reading, and after long lessons.
Eyes, sensation, as if a fruit is withering in the wind. Shriveled, there is no moisture. As an orange peeled under air conditioning, it hardens and wrinkles. The eyes hardly glide, scratching the conjunctiva. I'll be raisins instead of grapes.” [Plant Kingdom]
She is a student in a medical college. When a child she wanted to be a designer [Silver Series], but later on she “switched to more scientific natural sciences like chemistry. I loved to dig into subtle details, get to nuances. All those elements and combinations; it is so beautiful and romantic, there is chemistry everywhere. I portrayed myself as a great scientist, I wanted my own laboratory. I dreamed that I am a brilliant chemist, I would think up and develop an incredible new device, I would participate in the process of creation. I am interested in genetic research, in DNA analysis, just to be a part of a great process. It is not about a nuclear bomb to enslave the world, but it is about being involved in something new and the sublime, in order to change life, make it more comfortable, to help people.” [Combination of Lanthanides and Silver Series, Plants, 665]
She likes nature. “Seaside, boats, waving. But my vestibular mechanism is next to zero. I have had nausea from driving since childhood and till now. On a merry-go-round it becomes really bad after a minute.” [Phase 3].
“I am conservative, until I adapt to something new. I am a coward, I am afraid that they will not like me for some reason, I will be excluded from the group, the society.”
The problems with vision started at the age of 8, after a transfer to a new school where the class did not accept her. She was bullied, she had no friends. At the same time, she gained a lot of weight, there were problems with the skin, and she turned from an excellent pupil into a mediocrity. She felt herself as “sludge”, but she endured it. She developed a strong myopia.
Now, in the college she also does not feel fully belonging to the group. She only communicates with one girl, and she is missing her secondary school, despite no contact with it. She does not feel sure.
At the level of facts, she is not alone, she is not an outcast, nor an outsider; she is not fully accepted into a group; she has to adjust, endure, that is, to adapt. Phase 3.
She feels herself as “sludge” and lonely. Phase 1.
Presciption: a Phacelia remedy, 30CH.
Three months later, October 2016
“I feel satisfaction, I said goodbye to my old schoolmates. I have realized that I have to go ahead, to move forward. It is as if I have shaken off the husks; now we have different interests and nothing to talk about.”
She acquired new friends in her college, she started to visit class parties and group events. She has realized that she must and can communicate with people; before that life seemed to pass by.
The dryness of the eyes went away completely in the first two months. Now, the eyes are normally wet, but the dryness started to come back in the evening, from exertion and fatigue.
The menses that had been always irregular before, now come exactly on time.
Prescription: Phacelia remedy, 1M.
Her mother also took Phacelia 30CH, at her own initiative. Her pain in the leg disappeared, that had started two years ago after a Crotalus remedy. There were problems with veins, pain when walking; she could not wear normal shoes, and she walked in worn-out trampled slippers. Now she can afford to wear compression stockings. Her usual morning migraines went away. After the first doze of Phacelia her mood was really good, many positive ideas appeared about organizing and renovating her office. At the same time, after Phacelia there was a confusion about routine things. She was losing her way on the road, she could not properly insert card into a cash machine, etc.
Follow-up January 2017
Her ophthalmologist was surprised, “it is strange; there is no deterioration despite the exam session in the college. We usually expected one diopter more. There was always a bad eye fundus, vessels were narrowed, and now not narrowed and better.”
She visited a dress stylist, made a decision what her fashion is.
“I do not like shopping. I could never find a good combination of clothes. In the morning I put on whatever there is at hand. I did not know what fitted me, could not find matching shoes. It was a big problem, and I had no solution. I did not have my own image as such. So, we disassembled the whole wardrobe, selected the kits and sets. Now I know what suits and matches me. Before that, I only went to shops with my mother or friends. They have their own vision, they criticize me but they do not know how to explain. And the stylist does know. “
“I want to be stylish; it is time to get boyfriends. I talk very little to boys, I don’t know how to behave and what to say. It is time to start, otherwise I feel like a child.”
“Now I feel 100% in the group. I was unsociable. I'm not as inconspicuous as in an American film, I can present myself. Everyone accepts me, everyone is my friend, so I want to change my role, so that they take me more seriously. I have a dissonance; I seem to be like a teenager, but the college requirements demand me to be an adult.
Rx: Bufonia remedy 200
Follow-up June 2017
“The summer exams are over. The state of mind is quite unusual. Before, I had panic and hysteria, nobody could approach me. Now, I feel a kind of fear, but it is as if I have no time to panic, I an just busy working.”
She lost 3 kilos of weight. The food is rational, no special diet, “just not to be hungry”, less sweet.
“I get together with my college group quite often, at parties and events. I feel a big emotional recovery. A year ago my granny joked that I seemed like a bear in winter hibernation. Now I want to wander, to run, to dance. I talk much more, I am sure of myself, there is no inferiority complex.”
She developed a crust on her scalp, right side, resembling psoriasis. Initially it was there in her early childhood; after eating sweets her whole head was covered with wet crusts. At that time, a Manganum remedy ameliorated the skin problems, however, she gained a lot of weight immediately. It caused a mental complex over the whole childhood, because suitable pants and clothes could only be found in boys’ department store. She was often taken for a boy.
The skin problems have always been connected with stresses and exams. When in secondary school, she had to wake up at night and wash her head, to get rid of itching. Over the last three years she did not have this problem.
The dryness in the eyes is much better, the sand feeling comes from time to time, but the eyes are watering, the wash-off process is going on. Worse during exam sessions.
“There are goals that seem to be impossible. I think a lot over them, contemplate from every side, and then I realize things and find a solution. I try to solve issues, I dream up a lot globally, and then I put them aside. Once a good moment comes I have a solution.” [Stage 5? Stage 6?]
Her mother also took one doze of a Bufonia remedy 200 in March, and she quickly changed for the better.
Presciption: a Bufonia remedy 200
Follow-up April 2018
No consultations were needed, everything was fine.
Psoriasis disappeared, everything is good with the skin. No eye problems, except minor aggravations during exams.
“Now, I came at my mother’s request. I got involved into design matters, and my mother is worried that I drop my medical studies. I read a book about colors, and it fascinated me with the richness of the world of colors. I am very sensitive to their combinations. It is important for me that every color is carefully selected with the proper tint. I am prepared to re-paint everything at home, all the furniture, the kitchenware, the frames of paintings. Now, I am only allowed to have a bit of fun in the attic, I renew and recolor old furniture.”
“I get real kicks from observing colors, everywhere, be it a café or a forest. When I see a beautiful color shade I feel a bliss. I am crazy about it.”
“My creative stream has started its flow. Much less swotting for exams in my college; I read a lot about life stories of artists, musicians, composers.”
“I am so happy about it. As if I got rid of a burden and began to enjoy life. It’s so good just to sit down, drink some coffee, to be happy. I look at things jolly, I have no fear. The recipe of happiness is simple, just look out of the window and enjoy it.”
“I am now at crossroads. I thought I would become a endocrinologist. It does not inspire me anymore. The job specifics oppresses me. One has to identify exact dozes of drugs but every patient gets the same drug anyway. I used to think that a doctor’s profession is creative, but in reality it appears to be a trivial routine craft. In two years’ time I will complete neurology, and then the actual work will be depressive.”
“My classmates fawn over the lectors, and it casts a damp over me. It means, I have to prove to everyone that I am not a dupe either. Even the optional classes give no pleasure from learning, they are full of competition. If someone is corrected, then others immediately attack him. It’s humiliating.”
“Two weeks ago I suggested to my mother that I go into a designer profession; and she got alarmed, indeed.”
“When I have a can of paint in my hand and re-color a chair I feel real happiness and euphoria, as if I have realized the sense of life. The colors are connected with an ocean of things. Violet is connected with a sunset, lilac means philosophy, unconsciously. All of them cause a brain storm. I love geometry, too, it creates order.”
“The color has power. It can change the life of people. Opening a door into the unknown.”
Prescription: a Papilio remedy 1M
Extreme sensitivity to colours: butterflies.
Geometry was strongly expressed in the apilio remedy proving.
Feeding plant of the Papilio species is a Gelsemium species. According to her mother, a Gelsemium remedy was the best rescue for the girl in acute conditions.