Meliosma laureata
Sense proving, Utrecht, Jan Scholten.
Prover 1
Procrastinating, distracting, doing something else each time.
Contraction, centripetal, bringing everything upon oneself, unable to relinquish or delegate anything.
Trident, Neptune.
The middle between two poles.
Going crazy to avoid responsibility, pretending it's no big deal, taking responsibility but not wanting to be criticized; doing it for oneself.
The taste of the fruit is mealy, meaningless.
Sentimental.
A child.
A parent with a child, very concerned and even overly concerned, but not wanting to show it so as not to lay drugs.
Need for contact they want contact, but it feels like there is always something in between.
Waiting and putting yourself out in front.
Stage 9.
Having put everything on one thing and then just waiting to see if it works out, if the other person will be faithful to you; so having to hold back, stifle and wait.
Forehead aches, glowing and pressing.
Nausea and vomiting because you are dismissed by family or friends who have done so much for them and have always been there for them.
The other always wants something in return.
Ankle sprain to.
Pain in my tailbone. No smell.
My child is the apple of my eye.
No taste and yet nausea.
Prover 2
In woman who lost her mother.
Discussed. Homesickness for the next in completed.
Pleasant distance to the world, separated by a veil of melancholy.
One has lost the joy of the world and life, but somewhere that is beautiful too.
A beautiful sadness and homesickness.
Misery, the world disappears into the shadows.
In elf world, reality is like a veil.
The veil is the sorrow, through this veil we have access to demons of others, the world of demons.
Where are my children, where is the connection to the world.
In the depths a warm sorrow, a valley of tears, madness.
Strong presence in the body, purity.
Elves and women in the forest.