Marchantia polymorpha
Proving: sense proving, 6-4-2018, Rottenburg.
UGLY
Beaten down, beaten, on the ground, totally withdrawing into the inner world, which is small and safe: the passive side.
Or: Rough, hulking, simple, lumbering, beating, hitting, rough words (active page)
Armour, like a real armour, or a mental armour, impenetrable.
I want to remove the earth to which the moss has stuck, only a delicate leaf is left with little threads clinging to the earth; is not easy to separate.
The rough is just a facade that collapses when you look deeper. Behind it is a delicate, vulnerable person who needs a lot of protection and care,and who is clinging ( like with fine threads).
I pick up one of the tender leaves and wrap it around, giving it a feeling of security: a little child being held and hugged - long, long, long time.. and that is healing!!
After the long hugs, I can live, hear the birds chirping, they sing beautifully and life is a wonderful gift, it is a lot of joy just to be !!
( Father: War experiences; orphaned at the age of 15, bombed out at the age of 18, had to go to war at the age of 17..)
Analysis
Moss: inner world, small, safe; delicate, vulnerable; little child.
Phase 2: delicate, vulnerable
Phase 6: ugly
Stage 12: armour, mental, impenetrable.
Dream after proving Marchantia polymorpha
I am at the home of a friend. She has a little child in the crawling age. She wants to go somewhere and she thinks that the child has no problem to get along alone. The child is crying and wants to crawl behind the mother, but the mother is much faster than the child, so that very soon the child cannot see the mother anymore.
The child is crying a lot, but then it turns to other things and it is an atmosphere of withdrawing; there is another person who takes the child on the arm and it does not react; I have the feeling that the child is only adapting, but it has not the ability to be alone without the mother.
I am in the center of a town where there takes place a religious procession. I am looking at it from outside.
Suddenly there is also a political demonstration which pushes in between the procession. There, where I am standing, suddenly a lot of spectators are pushing from behind. Suddenly I am in between a big crowd. A strong male hand is grabbing my hand from behind and is pressing my hand firmly. I am very unconfortable with that, but the hand is so strong that I cannot fight against it. He is pressing his body against me from behind and he wants to rub his penis against me. I push against it with all my strength, but it is all so tight because of the crowd that I do not have nearly any chance to fight against it.
I am waking up with a feeling of horror.