Erodium cicutarium

4.14 Erodium cicutarium

Number: 65311.12
Series: Hydrogen, Carbon and Silicon series; emphasis on Silver series.
Clades: Geraniaceae; Geraniales; Malvanae.
Phase: 1; Subphase: 1.
Stage: 12.

Names: Erodios is Greek for heron.
English: Hemlock Stork’s Bill; Filaree.
French: Bec de heron.
Source: North American.

Introduction
The theme is that of a family with quarrels and discords, different opinions and positions. Relatives are cheating, trying to be able to do their own thing. They feel forced by the family and want to break out, but that can be done only with difficulty.

Mind
Worry obsessive, compulsive.
Disproportionate and obsessive worry; unable to gain a wider perspective on daily events.
Limited perspective, daily events, trifles.
Inner strength lost.
Suppressed psychic energy and spiritual inspiration and vision.
Affected by pains.
None of his acts is appreciated.
Female.
Eldest daughter in a big family, farmers grand family.
Warm protecting family, fear being thrown out.
Looking at the past, circling around things of the past.
Looking with left eye through right eye, head shifted to the right.
Looking with emotions to things that better can be seen rationally.
Emotional, shrieking.
Not grounded.
Puberty, end of puberty, not fully grown up.
Abused, sexually abused, not knowing what to do with it.
Secrets in the family.
Not focused, attention going into trifles.
Fear: marriage, that it will not work out well.
Hurt by grief, eaten by an unconscious hate, < unhappy love, betrayed.
Controls his actions, being controlled by a censor.

Erodium cicutarium, proving.
Dream proving, November 2010, Emst.

Prover 1.
Sensation of floating in light green; trauma’s are far away. Down below me are little black people who are fighting for possessions.
Headache in the brain, stabbing pain.
Stomach pain, as a band.
Burning chest; heartburn.
Cold feet.
Anger, helplessness, worse something is taken away, God damn, feeling of anger rising from the stomach into the throat.

Prover 2.
Feeling of space, I saw many large landscapes, Dutch.

Prover 3.
Emptiness, peaceful, murmuring, relaxation, connection and healing.
Sensation of trickling water.

Prover 4.
Feeling of torticollis, first left, then right; desire to rotating my head, shielding the eyes, unwilling or unable to see, holding hands before the eyes.
Feeling a little flat.
Wanting to achieve, but can not; attempts fail, get stuck.
I came in the same, shielded area, unpleasant.
If you can stay in the closure it is nice, but something had to happen.
Always a twist, you stand in the circle there is something one can not get out of, but maybe one has to reconcile with it.

Prover 5.
Nothing, flat space and birds.
Trying to survive on the spot where I am.

Prover 6.
Void in pelvic and groin area and in the lungs and then great view and when I looked closely it was not sea but clouds and I had big wings.
But it is wrong even if it’s good, if I do not want to belong somewhere.
Images in a wall of rock, carved, a kind of scary, sacrificial images; association with Buddha statues destroyed by the Taliban.
A chapel in Yemen, with terrifying heads and a sacrifice place, where you are sucked into the primal matter; the theme of the Indian Goddess Kali.

Prover 7.
Left side of face is pulled down.
Floated, seeing far away, beautiful oceans, mountains, light.
Happiness, freedom, horizontal image and then horizontal headache and had to go outside.
Tension in body, feeling “I cannot get out of here, I need the help of people”.

Prover 8.
Relaxed, sank down, Buddha-like, then I saw pictures with breasts and wings and then flies and fish underwater and then swim underwater and dark figure under water. Much movement, wings in the air ‘Leisure’. Leisure.
Then everything pink, sheep clouds, lots of visuals.
Then came images of my dream: a sparrow came up to me, not timid, got sitting on my pants, another bird, kind of twisted immature bird, tripped up to him, sticky and I wanted to waylay him.
Stiff neck.

Prover 9.
Neck, pain, twisted, little happened, but practical things and still do that.

Prover 10.
Female.
Eldest daughter in a big family, grand family farmers.
Warm, protecting family, fear being thrown out.
Chest tight, tense, sternum, back, cervical, dorsal.
Difficult respiration, high, superficial, asthma.
Diarrhoea.
Looking at the past, circling around things of the past.
Looking with left eye to the right, head shifted to the right.
Looking better with emotions to things that can be seen rationally.
Emotional, shrieking.
Not grounded.
Puberty, end of puberty, not fully grown up.
Abused, sexually abused, not knowing what to do with it.
Secrets in the family.
Not focused, attention going into trifles.
Fear marriage, that it will not work out well.

Constellation
Prover 2 moves and becomes very sick, cold, uncomfortable, shivers; going outside of the circle he feels good again.
Prover 7 has a lot of space and terrible headaches.
Prover 5 feels painfully tight.
Prover 10 has headache, is tense and restless let his head hang down.
Prover 6 sits down and is completely shielded, do not want to see, has his hands over his eyes.
Prover 9 obstructed breathing.
Prover 6 feels as obstructed by magnetic fields, tenses hamstrings, respiratory obstruction.
Prover 9 and prover 3 are attracted by light.
Prover 3 is attracted by the light of the sun, but feels connected with everyone by lines.
Prover 10 wants nothing to do with others.
Prover 5: “only this tile feels good “.
Prover 6 does not go away, do not mind to pass a threshold to be connected to the others, but does not do it.
Prover 3 and prover 7: very peaceful, as in uterus, and that is what it is.
Prover 2: a lot happens underneath and I just do not look.
Prover 3 has a connecting function.
Prover 8 needs freedom to move, a chair was too close, but it took long before I put it away.
Prover 10 does not want to be in the centre, as if he must do something.
Prover 6 is in the centre, but sees himself from outside, detached.
Prover 7 flat space feels tense.
Prover 5 greets space in meditation and flock of birds.
Prover 3 and Prover 7 think about water and sea.
Prover 6 sees above the clouds and a bird with strong wings.
Prover 2 feels sick, wants to leave.
Prover 9 feels prover 2 is disturbing the view.
Prover 10 hides behind pole, passive, tense, feeling unable to help and lets things happen; it is as if all problems are going to the centre, as if there is all the tension.
Prover 4 has a basket on his head, thinking others can move, he feels connected, but does not want to be connected, feels cold, will to go outside, but does not feel good there either.
Prover 6 feels a negative energy in the centre, that sucks everything away, a huge suction power, heaviness, as if sacrificed, drained by something in the centre, it is colder.
Prover 9 has the idea of an Inca trial, waiting for the trial till the sun rises; having to wait until the sun rises.
Prover 7 does not know where they should begin, feels that freedom is nice but we must do something.
Five are standing in the centre: tension.
Prover 4 is at the side, has resistance to go the centre, but does it still; he would like to deal with people, but feels it is not allowed; it gets warmer when they are together in the centre; prover 2 goes out again, as well as prover 10.
Stagnation in the centre.
Prover 2 laughs: “you are a bunch of navel gazers”.
Prover 4 softens in his resistance.
Prover 6 feels a strand between his shoulder blades down to his heart and groin and hamstring pulled down.
Prover 3 has palpitations when they stood in the centre.
Prover 2 feels the group as oppressive.
Prover 10 also softens the stress.
The provers in the centre call the others to come, almost mandatory; they feel that has to be done, otherwise it will not work, you have to go through a resistance.
Prover 4 has to call prover 9.
It feels not good when someone remains outside.
They need to call prover 9 and prover 3 decisively.
Prover 3 felt artificial going into the centre, but being there felt good.
Prover 2 has much aggression.
They want to break off.
Prover 5 and prover 3 feel sick.
Together in the group feels less tense than before, it’s not good yet, there is still resistance, in prover 6, there is no flow.
Prover 10 feels a blockade between the people.
Prover 4 feels quite a step, first he could not connect.
Now they go apart.
Prover 10 feels it scary, navel gazing.
Prover 9 feels freer when separate.