Allamanda cathartica
Introduction
They have a big problem with contacts. AT one hand they feel too insecure and shy to get into real contact and at the other hand they feel already excluded before they got the contact. They fear that when they will be open they will be seen as ugly and dirty, that something is not good with them and that people will only tolerate them without real respect. This makes them very irritable, thinking that others will not like them even before anything wrong has been said.
They like to shine and to be beautiful and attractive, but often feel too big, too obese, too tall, too much, expansive, clumsy, ugly and unfitting. They fear to take their own space, overrule and hurt others. It makes them retiring, avoiding the contacts, or being present silently. They feel confused when mixing with others, as if they are misunderstood and misunderstanding others, as if they are talking in different languages. The are very sensitive and see things that others do not understand, which makes the communication even more difficult.
These problems are in present in the family, personal relationships and friends and in their job. They can get in a marriage out of fear of not getting a spouse anymore, without feeling real love. They feel not accepted and abused, but where they are to adapting to divorce. It can lead to cat and dog quarrels. Their parents often had fights, openly and silently and they had to endure and solve those parental problems. Their parents can make them responsible for their suffering.
Their desire for a better world makes them having professions and projects to do good for the world. They want to make people free, free from suffering and pain. But often there they are also misunderstood.
Mind
Lonesome, alone in the group, in the marraige.
Irritable, < misunderstood, being left alone, being alone.
Female: uterus inflammation, < spiral.
Body
General: cathartic, antibacterial, anticancer.
Mouth: taste bitter.
Throat: bitter.
Stomach: nausea.
Skin: rashes, itch, blisters.
Literature
Scholten J. Nosy Be provings. Utrecht. 2014.