Peganum harmala
Remedy code: 3-655.56.13
Male 53 years old, tall, moves a lot, friendly and cheerful, can occupy very much space, as well energetic and social, and seems very aware of this: it does not bother because he sees very quickly the effect and also acts quickly or corrects his mannerisms. Remarkable man, artistic. Smug, own vision.
With his suns he is quiet but powerful, protective and very responsible, understanding and sensitive.
Slight chaotic in movements, sloppy in dress, restless and an impulsive way of talking. Sits down with the shirt half open, convinced of himself, talks airily as if he is just telling anecdotes or a strong story, almost teaching and well-informed, enlightening without being pedantic. Talks with short, quick movements of his head, nearly jerks, as if to reinforce the words, scattering them around with a broad gesture.
Problem is a completely disrupted sleep-wake rhythm. A rare metabolism disorder, where the amino acids are converted differently. It sometimes gives an lsd-like substance: that has given damage. You're out, a gloominess
It came up in puberty, the same time it popped up that I was artistic gifted, I blew me up, started living up to the impossible.
I was advised a very strict diet, so lost a tremendous amount of weight, my well-being decreased and I started experimenting with sleep-wake rhythms, working all night. Research showed that brain activity is out of sync, parts are asleep and other parts are awake. An experimental drug was used, after two weeks it gave a giant bang in the head, right side, it felt like 'pang'. Still a 'crazy' feeling right temporal. Since then memory has deteriorated a lot, quality of sleep is poor, tired getting up. Thinking deteriorates, recovery is difficult
That period I was very introverted, dreamy. Without diet I am sensitive, dreamy, less social, you experience everything differently. I am an artist, very broad. My paintings: I started as an expressionist, heavy work in my youth, a lot of abstract geometric surfaces. The gloom was considerable, I've been depressed, ‘past the gloom’ so to speak.
The end of the afternoon I have to sleep for an hour, I try to restore the rhythm, often lie awake the night. Extreme fatigue.
At night very often sleeping limbs, it startles me, arms and sometimes legs.
Headaches never had.
From puberty on I smoke all day and use far too much coffee - I love coffee - 'intemperance', stupid.
I used to have great dreams, vivid, I enjoyed them immoderately. From the period of depression and the sleep-rhythm problem I have recurrent nightmares: I am being murdered, strung by someone on the knife.
During adolescence, I had huge discussions with my parents, and my upbringing was quite harsh, a lack of understanding and physical violence.
That period creativity bubbled up, I started with it with a high pressure imposed on myself, school was not more than an afterthought.
On the right side I sometimes notice that my motor skills are not good, occasionally swerving or dizzy. I feel the blood rush in the head, then become deathly pale.
I don't want too much on my body (speaking of therapy and medicines), see if such a comment has relevance.
Analysis:
Most prominent: eccentric, artistic, teacher, art, in addition other Silver-serie aspects: teaching, conveying ideas, philosophical, dreaming: Silver series5.
Appropriate characteristics or word he used: imposing pressure, drive, wanting the impossible, thrust, 'beng', drive, enjoyment, chaotic, restless, out of sorts: Phase 5.
This already brings us to the Sapindales.
Parents: no appreciation, gloom, breakdown, extreme fatigue: Phase 6.
Going over the top again points to Phase 5, or stage 15.
Theme death, dreams murder, feeling detached from the world, being different from other people: Peganum harmala casuistry, prooving.
Talks explaining, in an understanding way. Overcharging oneself, ‘not fully’ asleep, it is again ‘in between two worlds’, holding to the day, to the consciousness.
dd: metabolic disease: Actinides, brain functioning sleep and wake activities at the same time: lac delphinium.
Presciption: Peganum-harmala C200 once.
Follow up After six weeks:
less busy in movement, eyes are calm (before: always squinting, as if the eyes would turn outward, before he always had very brief eye contact, and then the eyes looked into space, far away, chasing his thoughts, words and ideas, I see that way of ‘looking’ often in Silver series case: looking or reading their own ideas, just receiving, eyes as antenna, in clade 65 cases it is more side en upwards, focus and going up in their picture of memory or thoughts).
"It's amazing, those little pills.
There has been a very beneficial calmness in the head over the last few weeks. I am also very sensitive. It arose within one or two days, peace of mind is very nice. Unfortunately, the sleep-wake rhythm has not yet changed at all". Talk fast, driven. "I also get into deeper sleep, for years I dream in colors again. Memory is 1 or 2 points better, on a scale of 10, which I think is quite a lot.
It is a tremendous rest. The last week the biological clock is working again; I wake up in the morning. Pieces of the head sleep again, I feel that. Not yet waking up refreshed. What I notice myself: certain zones, the vertex, feels more like sleep activity; it feels less annoying (amazing is his sensitivity of brain activity, like the Solanaceae as mentioned by Carke ).
Sleep is shorter rather than longer, now sleep feels deeper; I do still take an afternoon nap, ever since puberty. I still lie awake for a long time, but in a less annoying way, before I also had panic: I don't sleep!
Work is going well, creativity is good, that is indestructible, a huge drive. Often it is too much for myself.
The sleeping limbs: much less bothered by it, before this every night it was quite scary. That too is sensationally less, I am happy about that.
after six months:
still a gigantic progress. The feeling that parts of the head are asleep has flattened. Biological clock feels more normal, sometimes sleeping even 7 or 8 hours, then amazed that I am awake and fresh.
Pleasant dreams. Memory still better.
When talking he still thinks with me, thinks for me, and – not surprising- thinks faster then me.
The sleeping arms and legs have been gone for months. Diet is still determining whether parts of my head fall asleep during the day, I feel the activity. Whats rest is a need of sleep dip in the afternoon he doesn’t accept.