Case Agave tequilana
Female born '50
Came to me in 05/03.
Her complaints were, for many years, " Arthrosis through my whole body, from neck to all the joints in arms and legs. " Her back is and looks very straight.
"I have been an heavy alcoholic (like my father) till '92 and stopped drinking at once, a year later I stopped the smoking. I have been very self destructive. Since then I am a member of the AA and have lived a healthy life. My health is still improving, the result of the medical examinations is good. Swimming could be therapeutical.
I do not like to swim in a pool with other people, feels filthy to me. I would prefer yoga or meditation. For my job I have to walk all day". She takes care of the restaurant of the board of directors in a big hospital where she is very much appreciated.
-Observation; She is a good looking sophisticated lady, short curly dark hair and bright blue eyes, tastefully dressed, slender and quite tall. She has a sharp inquisitive look and although she talks openly there is a kind of distance in her attitude.
"I have 3 younger brothers,have been born with rachitis and my mother trained me a lot to get my legs straight. I have very little memories from my childhood. I started the drinking at my 15th, it is a familiar trait. We had a disfunctional, sensitive, neurotic family.
As a child I had a strong fear to disappear, that I would be totally alone and not been able to take care of myself. My grandmother was insane during her climacteric period, she walked naked on the streets. In my climacterium I could be aggressive, once in a bar I attacked a woman who reported me at the police, at that time I reached the bottom of the pit and was lost. Then I joined the AA program.
I am a passionate person, not stupid and I got a lot to know about myself during this program.
I had to bent very humbly during that period. Now I am helping people in the AA. The group voted me again for president this year.
I was always very dependant, I could not work because of the drinking and during my 7 years marriage it all deteriorated. My husband claimed me totally and I started to refuse him also sexually and then I escaped to the city. I manipulated to get my drinks.
As a child I was very ambitious, wanted to be the best, sweetest, most beautiful girl and I had fantasies about my self being top-interesting. I did anything to get compliments, If a man liked me I was ready to surrender, from about my 15th.
At 19yr. I was pregnant, it was a stillborn (6-7 month) and I was not allowed to see it. Many years later I mourned about it. I had many men, always the wrong ones,all alcoholics.
I was a rebel in my youth, my ma was too strict for me and after my miscarriage I wanted to get out. I felt contempt for the bourgeois situation where I came from, this absurd family life. My mother still behaves theatrical. When I visit her I have to be very careful because we do have fights very easily. I am the confronting type and she does not accept criticism. I can curse and scold, I do have a shameless side. I can passionately love and hate. I always have loved God, I expected Him to take care." Allmighty, Help me!", and He did. As a child I felt a great empathy for Jesus, it was a big grief in my heart.
At night my heart really can burn, if I pray it softens. I do have something with Eucharisty and there was a time that I wanted to enter a cloister. I always have been interested in spirituality.
I am an independent woman, no feminist, living in celibacy since 10 years.
I went through horrible things and as a kind of masochist, I took a lot..
I am ascetic and strict, filled with love and happy since I stopped drinking. Before it was terrible. I did not take food any more, had no trust or self-criticism and I was very careless to the feelings of other people. I had to learn what feelings are.
The last year it feels physically as if my heart is burning in the chest with trembling around it.
I have nightmares of murder and slaughter, deep seas and monsters and I can wake up crying, it is heartrending. For work I applied for the jobs where they asked for excellent workers.
I am into mysticism and try to be realistic. I can tip the scales, they said at home, so that it isn't workable anymore.
'Out of reality' could be that I could sanctify myself, I have to be humble.
I thank God that I am here like this.
In the morning I feel stiff and I have a kind of muscle pains with a feeling of worms under my skin. After movement it gets better.
I am not a 'drugs person'. Once or twice I used cocaine, speed a few times and once a trip LSD, a long time ago.
I do not digest chocolate, sweets, creme and fat very well. I do drink a lot of water.
I have some tough mucous in the frontal sinuses.
I want very much to learn everything and to be a wise spiritual woman."
Analysis
Because of the alcoholism, haughtiness, shamelessness, religiousness, rheumatic pains,
I gave her Veratrum alb. 200K
F.U. after 4 weeks
She felt a strong reaction after taking the remedy, which she appreciated but.
" I feel very tired and nauseous, I do eat though, and concerning the arthritic pains there are bad and better periods.
My bag has been stolen with my money." (she has a little income and no chance working more because of her health condition.) "I try not to be emotional about it, if I loose control I might start drinking again. I get aggressive and unfair if I drink, like Jekyl and Hyde.
I was just like a dog, unworthy for a human being, while I wanted a great life. Through the alcohol I liked rough sex, but not any more.
If I feel desire I masturbate, it releases aggression to men especially". She is irritated that this subject comes up.
"I do blossom in my work!."
Sleep is bad, wakes up frequently. The burning heart is still there but not painful.
She does not remember her dreams, it is" like a black swirling mass of water, wild and dark, oppressing, like the making of something. I am able to fly in my dreams, I prefer at the height of people to oversee everything and keep in touch at the same time."
I gave her Platina MK
F.U. 9 weeks after the 1st consultation
No effect.
I feel worse at night, resting. Numbness in fingers and lips and arthritic pains, a drawing pain in my body and restlessness. I feel like cramped on waking, I have starting problems, better being busy.
I suffer from headaches on top of the head like a tight helmet, it feels good to wear a cap with peak.
I do not believe in a life without suffering.
I am softer and more sensitive, I am 'de-harding'. I was in tears seeing a homeless man eating a meal.. My brother is ill, I would like to be able to help him.. I do recognize his strong arrogance and the self destruction! Insanity is well known in the family. "
Physically
Nausea 80 % better, Less mucous, no more headaches, the burning heart is softer, more a prickling feeling now. Dreams not suffocating anymore, it is 'more like the lifting of a veil.'
The rage towards men is softening.
F.U. 14 weeks after the 1st.
"I feel emotionally top and in peace,
but my knees and elbows are as if powerless, I do drop things from the hands, it comes from the neck. I have restless legs and tearing tingling fingers, which wakes me up frequently. My energy is just enough for my 4 days job and I have to rest my free days."
Some 6 Follow ups more
No amelioration in the arthritic situation, in fact there is an extension even to the clavicula and the pains are wandering. Worse wet and cold. She claims to feel fine emotionally.
Her self-worth gets stronger, feels that she does not get enough payment and starts to come up for herself. She feels humiliated by some of her colleagues. " I can be a fury, like a volcano, but I have still a fear to be turned down." "I hate dominating behaviour, it suffocates me and I get an impulse to strike out. My natural disposition is to drink. I do not feel natural since I am sober.
I am aware of the fear for 'the empty hole.' Through the alcohol I was not really there, like under a glass bell, it was like the 'garden of lust' from Jeroen Bosch.
I am afraid in the darkness and my mother made me suspicious, to men, to sex etcetera. I am quite capricious, like a stinging nettle, I do not want to be touched just like that. I was eager to experience life. I was looking for passion in the relationship, but I lost myself too fast."
She drinks a lot of water, juices, eats fruits, gherkins etc.
Cannot walk bare feet, her soles are too sensitive.
She has chronic money problems but had to buy special arthrosis shoes. She feels still more handicapped by pains in the shin bones and the rheumatologist gave her medication which gave her stomach pains, nausea and bad breath through digestive-problems. She stopped taking them.
"I have enough!! I get more complaints all the time. I feel a need to retire from the world.
I try to find out who I am in essence."
Remedies I gave her in this period;
Caust. 200K- Gadolin.oxyd.MK -Gratiola MK-Amm.sulph.200K-Uran.met.MK- Med.MK and the last time Syphill.MK in 04/04
07/04
She called for a new appointment, so before that, I restudied the case as I was determined to do anything to find 'her right remedy'..
I put into Reference works; alcoholism (rem)arthritis(rem)wandering pains
Many remedies came up but Agave tequilana was in the front and I decided that this could be the solution.
(Agave / Agavaceae /Asparagales /Liliflorae /Monocotyledonae (Wichmann).)
The Agave knowing close to the Liliales like Veratrum (her first remedy) gave me a feeling of excitement. I studied the info in the books (R.W.) and I was convinced to have found it.!!
Agave tequilana
Sadness and pessimism. Desire for the unattainable. Unsatisfied, unrealistic desires. Alcoholism with mental troubles. Voluble state, exitable. Jokes, asks questions, is humorous. State of nervous irritation, stammers, shouts, becomes violent, even aggressive. Temporary amnesia following the excited state. Dazed state. Hypomania, a state of exaltation, exaggerated overactivity followed often by a period of depression.
Theme ASPARAGALES
Restlessness and activity. High goals, purity. Polarity purity and sexuality, shamelessness. Spiritual, religious. Problems with partner or relationships. Cheating, betrayal. Reaching out to mankind. Balance between cosmos and down to earth. Duty, service. Post traumatic stress. Sexual abuse. Premenstrual syndrome. Disintegration. Heart region, problems in pelvic region. Problems of the acra, stomach. Fainting and weakness.
Her arthritis was still invalidating her, she has problems with digestion, the food does not go down.
She is facing experiences from her 'former life' to let go off.
"I long for contact with 'new' people around me and in fact I prefer to be alone, it is both."
So I gave her Agave Tequilana MK, which I had already ordered in the meantime.
Follow up 6 weeks after this remedy
She is exalted. Right after the remedy her joint- and muscle-pains vanished.
"My body feels calm, my concentration is much better and I have much more energy. As soon as it goes down I take some drops again." Her stomach and digestion are much better. (2 weeks ago she came for repetition of the remedy, so I knew that this remedy was a success, and she accepted a bottle with a solution based on alcohol/water which I could barely propose before..).
"I am more straight forward in a relaxed way, less dependent from the opinion of others". About he AA " I am very grateful to them and I will give them my support but not at the costs of my own evolution anymore. Now I think, what do I really want myself??