Brachythecium rutabulum
Proving: Sense proving; Martin Jakob, 6-3-2017, Munich.
Infant.
Feeling of threat.
It can happen all of a sudden.
An unpredictable, impulsive mother.
Sudden violence unpredictable.
Love, tenderness and sudden hatred and violence.
Always tense because you never know what happens next.
Insecurity.
Tense to make it right for others, not for yourself.
Feeling of threat with the question how do I behave properly.
How am I right?
Fight and cramp to make it right to be loved and not hated and threatened.
Dull, empty, black, heavy.
Hollow, blockade, do not come to.
The view is blocked.
No more thoughts, nothing is felt.
Sensation blocked.
No opening to visions, to dreams to ideas - ban.
Banned, ban-beam.
Neither pain nor fear, nor sensation, a gray world.
A forest in the winter, in the snow, little light everything is gray, cold and damp one lays down on the moss falls into the eternal sleep - until the muse kisses one awake.
Dream: I am with my partner on an old estate and look out of a huge room out of the window on a pond. There I see a creature, bearded with long vegetation. In this moment my partner appears in this room, I perceive this creature as funny, but suddenly the creature gets bigger and bigger and comes up to me, horrified I run away. The creature changes becomes a kind of snake, to get into the window, I turn to the left and see how the creature pursues my partner. He can not escape in this room and becomes smaller and smaller and disappears, the creature can no longer find him.
Picture: A trauma, a shock, an oppressive situation is so strong that one only can make oneself small and invisible. This is how this person lives, hidden not to be seen clear.
Astrologie: Neptun on the AC.
Vision: laughing with man and friends, drunk with happiness.
Solution: laughing the bann, the spell, veil away.