Ledebouria revoluta
Meditation proving, C200, 18-08-13.
Source: Pacific Bulb Society.
Music: Billy Idol, Rebell; New wave.
Introduction
A nice picture is expressed in this proving where we could clearly perceive Phases and Subphases. On the one hand, the expansive flourishing, ebullient, growing and spread corresponds with phase 5 and on the other hand there is instability, being twisted, kinking, tilting, not yet in equilibrium, by this "excess". Puberty, heaviness in the lower abdomen and so on confirm Liliidae, Silicon series themes and the confirmation of Hyacinthaceae in Phase 5, Subphase 3.
In puberty similar conditions may occur. Too much of the hormones, exceeding limits, to prove oneself. The peer group is important, one has to be able to keep up. One feels compelled to action for example in sexuality or alcohol excesses where one has to drink until one is tilt, or one gets an unwanted pregnancy. Or more in general: one's “excess” can overrule the underlying uncertainty, with all its possible consequences. Or on the other hand the instability or ones uncertainty and confusion prevents that one can fulfil his needs in the realm of puberty, friends, relationships, sexuality.
Mind
Small, stocky, strong, must bear much.
Phallic, peacock way.
Spiritual.
Girl in bikini - Forced to show up - at the same time a feeling of insecurity -
shame - inhibited - but coquettish, but also stiff.
confused, twisted.
Confused about the feelings in the body (puberty).
Have to prove themselves with sex in the peer group.
Remain closed or have to open up - forced to open.
To force oneself over his own insecurity - has to do it.
Flower as a grape - peer group - not alone - peer pressure - must present myself.
Presentation in an artful way, each flower is a work of art in itself.
Leaves like envelops, protecting the flower and supporting it, giving her the upward direction.
In the young stage, protected and guarded by the leaves.
When fully developed the flowers fall over.
In full bloom the flower is hard to bear - is not yet in equilibrium - the stability is not there yet - suddenly too many are blooming - that describes the state of puberty - ebullient - hormone thrust.
No system, there are too much blooming buds - What a power is put into the flower?!
Severity, I can not be upright, must lie down - have taken out the pressure, now I have the opportunity to go into the flowering, which is the most important.
Put all the power in the flower - no longer in the stability - bloom, blossom.
Be supplied - the flower is well supplied - that makes me happy.
The danger is to get to early pregnant - the fruit is formed too early.
The risk is that the stalk is kinking - Frigidity - fertility is cut off.
Youth, fuck it - when I tilt so what! - Ledebouria revoluta!
Scary - oh god what happened there.
Body
Pressure in the upper jaw, in the teeth.
Feel the necks of the teeth quite clearly.
Hay fever, swollen mucous membranes in the nose, clogged.
Drawing pain in the ovaries, on both sides.
Heaviness in the lower abdomen, lying ameliorates.
Vaginal mucus.