7.2 Ceriops tagal
Trituration proving 14-3-2011, Lamu
Provers: Prover 8, Prover 9, Prover 11, Prover 12
Went into the mangrove together and started giggling … "its a girlie one".
Prover 11: feels like Chinese/Japanese young virginal girls.
Prover 8: feels like American young girls.
Prover 9 joined group.
all changed into girlie clothes. skirts, flowers in hair. feel very special.
saw three little pretty blue birds splashing around in a pool of water.
'Mikado" 3 little girls from school are we.
Nail varnish on toes. fingers.
Prover 8: I feel light play sing swing.
the whole world is a big game.
lots of 'arhhhs and oooohs'.
Prover 11 doing Prover 9’s makeup.
Hidden girls. peeping at men.
Prover 9: watching the king as he enters.
When I look at men noticing them differently, exciting feeling, anticipation.
We are all waiting for our prince to come, preparing for our wedding.
Prover 8: look at him swimming the maleness. totally captivated by Prover 15 swimming.
Fantasy world- hidden away romantic view of what will come.
Flowers in our hair.
Prover 12: "This is gorgeous, lovely can't look in the camera as I would be exposed.
yes we are little princesses.
everything is possible. the world is full of possibilities, its like a starting point.
hearing the birds. beauty all around, blossoming.
swinging with the rhythm of the trituration, not a care in the world.
humming, swinging. are we in heaven?"
Prover 11: combination of Japanese, Chinese, Indian. little girls, so precious, so special.
Living in this little protected world, we will stay together. sisters.
Prover 9 has a circulation problem.
Prover 8; its like the day before your birthday.
Prover 11 feels trepidation at the idea of sex and penises and maleness, possibly being beaten up.
Prover 8 wants to stay with the innocence and fantasy, doesn’t want to see men in that way.
Prover 11 has nervousness about it.
Prover 19 comes by.
Prover 8. nearly fainted at the man being so close.
Prover 11: like I think of true love. but doubt it.
Prover 9. we will stay innocent and meet our prince.
Hiding and peeping, hiding in the mangroves.
Prover 8: "I see the big shining eyes of children looking out at the world and being amazed”.
Prover 9 feeling hot. no possibility of a serious discussion for her.
Prover 9 is hungry.
Prover 11 is sad at Prover 8 and Prover 9 being made up for the wedding.
they don’t realise their fate.
Innocent scared feeling.
Prover 8."NOOO no need to worry. choice made by papa
Prover 8 is his favourite. Prover 9’s husband already been chosen
its worth it … Prover 8.
Prover 9: it’s all an illusion not tru- trapped.
superficial make up.
Prover 8: maybe there is a way to break out of our world, commit a crime.
Prover 12. now I feel sick anxious lump in stomach
Prover 11 ". I feel really sad. something awful is going to happen.
dread fear."
Prover 12. heart thumping
Where is Prover 9 ? has she be.en kidnapped, has she killed herself? as her way out of the tyhreat, the oldest and the youngest one.
Prover 9 - theme of sexual abuse.
to be sexual abused by the brothers of the husband.
these horrible men, and our mother knew and that is why she gave us everything.
How to escape.
Prover 12. its nonsense there is no way out.
(palpitations and pain in left foot).
Prover 11: we are trapped because we are women.
Prover 8: "I don’t want to feel these horrible feelings. listen to that lovely bird".
Prover 12: "We fill our day with nonsense".
Prover 11: feeling sick.
Prover 12: all prettiness gone.
Prover 9 is confident that they will find a way out.
Prover 12 and Prover 11 feel trapped.
Prover 8 still wants to get married.
Prover 9 wants to be an artist.
Prover 11 fearing marrying a fat Russian.
Prover 12 accepted her fate to marry.
Prover 10 comes in (papa). and will not help us.
Hopelessness.
Prover 8 wants to stay together.
Prover 11 doesn’t want to have sex.
Prover 12 would prefer to die.
Hiding under the mangroves. no way out.
Prover 12 is in very black place. she will leave them to die.
Prover 11: "Shsall we commit group suicide?"
Prover 9 still thinks theres a way.
Prover 8: "It will be ok to be married".
Prover 12. died- calm again. white light.
I think I have left. all the physical symptoms have gone.
Prover 11 - pain in left ear.
Fat Russian with his penis.
Prover 9 still has hope for true love.
If I was raped I would just let it happen. being dead or alive is no difference.
Prover 9 - looking for a solution.
Prover 8 and Prover 11: "There is a naked man over there. that is disgusting. what is that about?"
Prover 9: "It is very strange, who invited him. it is disgusting."
Prover 11: "I want to vomit, a snake coming through the mangroves."
Prover 8: "I have his penis in the back of his mouth and I want to vomit on it."
Prover 11 wants to make herself undesirable. cut off his breasts.
Prover 8 wants to make herself skinny. not eating. unattractive.
Prover 11 thinks about having a disease. get aids.
Prover 9: "He's standing again offending her with his balls,. he's showing it off.
its coming closer and there is nothing you can do, its an aggressive thing."
Prover 11 wants to die.
Prover 8 - NO.
Prover 11. tries to die.
Prover 19 comes by.
We tell him to tell Prover 7 to put clothes on (in the other group).
Prover 19 goes to tell him. he turns to us and laughs. showing himself to us.
horrible, grotesque man.
Young and innocent. coming face to face with his maleness.
Have to fight it. we feel the strength coming back.
Prover 11 and Prover 8. we will get infected and enjoy killing our husbands.
the difference between male and female, males do not care, we will have affairs.
Power
I take the man. the ones I want, no love, just using men. for lust.
When he is dead. oh when he iss dead. infect him with sexual diseases. the ultimate power.
Prover 9 can see a solution. just follow me we go together. save the women, free them.
WOMAN HOOD, womankind.
Revenge. bite of the penises for all the victims.
sacrifice ourselves for womanhood.
kill the snake.
Prover 9. teach them how to deal with it.
Can we educate men? Men and women -one sex?
Prover 8 - wonder what it would be like to be a man for a week.. male genitals.
We don’t mind work. feels empowering and to educate our sons into feminine ways.
and to learn to appreciate the positive male energy which is strength and protection. rather than trapped and rape.
the softness of male energy not the dominance.
Feeling the strength of female power and wisdom.
Prover 8 sitting with pestle. like holding her own penis.
pestle and mortar. male and female. working together.
deep happiness. one life- one love.
Caring is the problem.
man caring for the woman.
Man wants to be cared for.
Prover 11: naked sex. not sexy underwear.
Prover 9. pestle pulsating in her hand, expressing feminine sexuality. freedom.
'Can you satisfy me?'
Empowering feeling.
Respecting ourselves and feel the respect of men.
We've grown up, this is the real paradise.
Man grove. men grow.
The climax.
Love yourself.
Sacred sex.
We are strong powerful sexual women.
Calmness.
Men carry the mother wound- that is what needs to be healed.
I feel invincible, as if someone had sex with me now they would gain power.
lower abdomen the sacred area. where men grow the womb.
forever entwined…. one love. balance.
Teaching men to understand women. teaching women to understand men.
Statue of liberty should be holding a phallus to represent the union of understanding and the freedom it brings.